Farewell 2009.

Well here's the last post for 2009.


This year has been kind enough to me, through the thick and thin, I can say, I survived the obstacles given throughout the twelve months. Things with the family has been nothing but great. I still can't believe I found myself being in love again, never knew it would be someone that has been there for me all those times.


Well, to everyone, have a good celebration and as quoted; 

Here's to the bright New Year, and a fond farewell to the old; here's to the things that are yet to come, and to the memories that we hold, farewell 2009.

A Little Boy at Heart.

I find it adorably cute when you've got that widest smile on your face like a little boy. Its so cute. If only I had a camera to take that moment and share it with the world, but its okay, I'll keep it as a mental picture instead.

Glad you called at four in the morning and drove yourself back at mine, acted like a little boy while I was cooking for you at four-thirty in the morning and not forgetting, falling asleep like a baby.

End of year.

Just 5 more days until 2009 ends. This year has been the most hectic year since O'levels, 3 years ago. This year was filled with never ending assignments, presentations, project and examinations. This year was also filled with distance from close friends, but not to forget this year was filled with laughs and smiles, new friends, celebrations and not forgetting the beginning of every individual's potential self.

I don't celebrate Christmas, but we did have a barbecue yesterday at Berakas beach. It was one of the many things that the Mister and I would come up randomly and call our friends over to join us. We've been doing it quite a lot this year, and I personally hope, there will be more of these random activities with the Mister and friends. *smiles.

Happy Faces.

Clickidy clickidy click!

21st.

A very happy 21st birthday to a very dear person in my life in this lifetime.

Today is such a special day, it marks the 21st year of your life on earth. *smiles

May this year, be the year where everything starts off with a BANG for you.

I believe in you. Have a good one and last but not least,

I love you.. Happy birthday aki boy!

Routine.

Its towards the fourth week of holiday now, and I haven't done much. All I do is the same ol' routine. Wake up, shower, head out, come back, stare into the laptop for hours, stay up all night, sleep, slack, bum around, be with the boyfriend, end up doing nothing and right now, nothing is what I am doing - aside from sending my CVs that's it really.

I thought I'd be doing so much this time of year, but seems like there's quite a number of setbacks.

Today.

Congratulations.

I know it has been awhile, I've been busy since early this month with preparations for my sister's nikah. It has been hectic, but at the end of the day, the hard work paid off. I did my part well as the floor manager and running all those errands. Ensuring everything is in place and everything is within reach. Congratulations to my sister and welcome brother in-law.*smiles.

Different.

Its different. Things feel different since the day we said our goodbyes. Had a farewell brunch which was a success, and in return a few tears. For the very first time everyone witnessed our guys crying. It was overwhelming to know that they aren't robots afterall. Two and a half years, I spent my mornings and afternoons with endless gossips, laughs, sarcastic jokes, silent treatments, and the day finally came and its over.

I don't think I've been myself lately, I have been a little quiet at some point. I admit I am still feeling sad for not seeing 12 other faces everyday, and another 12 faces of the other group, not forgetting the instructors. Its just different. I am missing these 24 people I have known for the past two and half years, we've grown together as a family and now, what's left is just memories, both good and bad. Well, I do hope everyone is fine and wish all of you the best of luck in whatever you do.

 

"we laughed at the beginning, and ended up crying our eyes out at the end of the day"

Mood Swings.

I tend to get bored easily lately. There is like limited things to do in the evening nowadays. You know that feeling when you feel like you need to do something and go somewhere just for the sake of not getting bored? That's me right now. I am bored shitless right now, I have no idea what to do. I've done my preparations for tomorrow's function and there's nothing left to do. I haven't showered since I got back from college, and I feel so freakin' lazy right now. *sighs. College ends in about 48 hours. I feel relief and sad at the same time. I don't know what I am right now. As of now, I feel pissy and all that. I don't know what's with the mood swings right now. It sucks!

...what lies within

Disturbed.

I still don't get it sometimes, when you know and you think it's inappropriate to text or call someone who is committed already, and say words like "i miss you". What are you trying to say actually? I know its like a friend thing, but don't you think that at some point the other party would find out and find it a little disturbing don't you think? Once an ex, always and ex, I admit I do this sometimes, but I actually don't say these words. I just tend to ask how are they doing, and don't actually bring up the whole "do you remember this and that and how we used to this and do that bla bla bla" crap.

I find it inappropriate and I find it a little disturbing when a third party says "i know this may come inappropriate, but i miss you".

In my opinion, if you do know and think its inappropriate, think before you actually do these things, cause these things could jeopardize something that is intact and running smoothly. There's always a reason why we don't hear from people that we've known for quite sometime already, cause maybe, just maybe they think its wise to not hurt one's feelings.

Freaking Out.

I'm freaking out and scared, went to the study fair this afternoon and looked for unies, found one that was available to go to and asked around. The only uni that gives out HND for my course was UWIC, the lady that was talking to me was nice. I got an application form off her. Considering the scholarship, I on the other hand don't think I can make it to the UK to further my studies. I'm having doubts in myself with my results. I don't think my GPA can get through. *sighs.

Talked to mom about how if I can't get through with the scholarship, asked her if she's willing to send me off to further my studies even if it means I've to study in KL. She said she is but I've to make a commitment with her and make promises.

The thought of leaving loved ones behind is sad and it scares me at the same time. I'm having doubts whether I'm ready for this or not. I actually don't want to leave but I do wanna leave cause its for the sake of having a brighter future. I suppose I've to swallow it all in and just get a move along with it, right?

A little somethin' somethin'.

I've been meaning to update but really I've nothing to update. *sighs. The only thing that I can think of is that I've got a week of school left and that I've got a shoot to do and it's been raining lately that we've got to reschedule like a lot of times. I got myself a simple dress yesterday, spent a little time with the mister and stayed home as per usual, I say usual as it has been like this for a couple of weeks already.

I'm all well from the fever and viral infection illness. Those antibiotics really did their jobs. I've got to think of what I need to be doing after the 26th. I know I'll be busy next week as it is my cousin's wedding.

Well I think I should be off now, figure out things to do.

Toodles!

It is coming to an end.

The end is near my friends. 26th November is just round the corner and we won't be seeing each other as much as we normally do. Its sad to know that two and a half years have come to an end, but the days we've spent together and the moments we've been through together will always be great memories. Good luck everyone with your future.

Its a little too soon.

I love the feeling to this picture, I like the wall paper and oh must I say last weekend was a good one. *smiles. It's 3:54am and I am suppose to be asleep, but I just finished watching 7 episodes of Eastwick. I find it a good series, and I wish I had powers.

I've been doing great since the last hospital visit, doing just fine. I'm thankful for it. College's pretty much over, I've got to sort out my leaving certificate and its sad how two and a half years actually have passed. It just felt like yesterday that I entered college. I don't think I'd be seeing everyone that much anymore after our last day.*sighs. Why does it have to end huh?

I guess its time to say our goodbyes pretty soon. The part which everyone hates.

Scared.

I saw study in UK banner today on the road while I was out with the mister. I told that I've got to go there to look for uni cause I am still thinking of furthering my studies. 10-15 minutes passed by, and I was pretty quiet. He noticed the silence and asked what's up.

I said with honesty, that I was scared of leaving home though I've been dying to. I'm scared of leaving home and scared of leaving everyone behind, but I've gotta do what I've gotta do to pursue my studies don't I? And the fact that I've to leave him behind as well, that made me more scared. *sighs

But hey, let's hope for the best. Hope everything goes as planned.

Medical Attention.

At last, I got some proper medical attention last night. Fever and pain did not want to go away and I've no idea what's the cause - until now though, but glad that we went for a second visit last night eventhough it took us 5 hours plus to be in the hospital.

I got a tube of blood taken, two tubes of piss taken, x-rays taken, a huge syringe of antibiotics given and a bottle of iv fluid given. Feeling a tad bit better, though I had to go through shit load of pain with the needles. Atleast this time I've got all the medical attention I needed.

Now my hand hurts cause of the aftermath of that stupid iv fluid needle. *sighs.

Well I must thank the mister for bringing me back and forth to the hospital and taking care of me, eventhough he had nothing to do while waiting, actually he did, but he didn't bother to play his PSP. *giggles.

Syukur Alhamdulillah.

And so, all the results for the end test last month came out and I am very satisfied with it.

Event Management = Distinction
Tour Operation = Merit
World Tourism = Merit
Sustainable Tourism = Merit
Introduction to Management = Pass
Marketing for Tourism = Pass


This is all for written paper, overall results are not out yet. *fingers crossed.

It has to stop.

I'm tired. Tired to have to feed myself with Panadol. I've had atleast 16 tablets since Tuesday night already. *sigh. Last night, I felt like puking it all out. Its not a nice feeling. Eugh!

Results.

I fell sick last night, like suddenly fell sick. I was actually feeling alright at first, went to fetch the boyfriend, headed to the tailor, went for dinner, this is when I started to feel cold when its actually warm already. Kept on whining and complaining how cold it was. Had to get myself a blankie before we went to watch a movie. I seriously fell sick last night, it was so sudden that it made me look oh so fucked. *sighs

But now, I'm feeling much better. Head's doing fine, temperature under control, hope it was just a 12 hour fever thing. *fingers crossed.

Oh and today, I was told that I got a Merit for my Sustainable Tourism's End Test. *smiles.

 So that means, three merits and a pass for 4 subjects on my end test.

Tour Operations: Merit
World Tourism: Merit
Introduction to Management: Pass
Sustainable Tourism: Merit
Event Management:
Marketing for Tourism:

Just two more subjects to wait for.

Random.

I managed to go for my Language and Communication's final assessment which is the interview this morning. I think I did well, and just after that I went straight to the boyfriend's to disturb him sleep until I fall asleep myself. *smiles

So we woke up at about lunch time and went out for a little, went back to his place after getting stuff and got things done just then.

Headed back home to an empty house, well just the little ones and maid. Stared into the laptop, and still am, well showered ofcourse, and still downloading series. Getting a little bored right about now. *giggles.

Recent Boards Blades Battle 2009.

Board Blades Battle 2009 from Bahrum Jaili on Vimeo.

Play this too!

Good bye October.

It's the month of November already, and that just means that 2009 is about to end pretty soon. I have been quite busy with my personal life lately and I must say I am in my most happiest state ever. There's projects coming up and two more school assessments to go.

Tomorrow's the Language and Communication Interview which I've to look for my certificates by now, and Tuesday's a final assessment on Sustainable Tourism and it's a case study.

Things have been great, attended a few events already, and its quite a change of scene. Next weekend is Naz's annual gathering, and the next weekend is Micbandits' gig. I'm a little excited for Naz's thing, but I've yet to pull some strings together for the theme. *sighs I think I can manage. Well I think so.

Last night was Pelangi Awards and I must say it was a success and went to a little Halloween gathering just after and went back home just as planned, by 2 a.m. *smiles.

I guess that's for now. I'll rant some more next time.

Untitled.

Lately.

Things have rather been alright so far, with things to do after exams I can say I'm a little prepared for the world. So far, I've got three merits from three subjects and I am happy with it. I must say, been out a lot and I must say things are far different from last year. Met up with a good friend last night and it always always reminds me of how everyone met. Its always nice to feel that you've got friends behind your back supporting you without you realising and helping you out in many ways to get you somewhere.

I like it here, I do not know how to face it next year if I have to leave. *sighs

Over and Done!

It is finally over. The reading, the revising, the rewriting, the answering, the spilling of brain juices, everything is done! Finally!

To top my day today, some of the results came out and I am happily satisfied with them.

Well off to catch up with sleep.

All Nighter.

I seriously need some sleep, but that would mean risking time to try and wake up and read again, which I doubt will happen.

That concludes pulling an all nighter.

Sustainable Tourism

Definition:

"..development that meets the needs of present without compromising the activity of the future generation to meet their own needs" Brundtland Report, 1987.

It means that it helps to create a better life for the present population in a way that it is viable for the future generation to use as well.

There are 9 Principles of Sustainable Tourism;

1.  It covers all scope concerning from environment, economic, social, cultural. political as well as mangerial.
2. Long term thinking, making awareness of the limits to what is being achieve.
3. Introductory of a proper policy, planning and management in tourism development.
4. Emphasizing on limitations and recognizing its limits.
5. Consulting stakeholders on decision making, encourage exchanges as well as compromising over the use of resources.
6. Recognizing and supporting the identity of development, seek the interest of local as far as possible
7. Identifying a proper area to be utilized for economic benefit
8. Minimizing environmental and cultural issues and impacts
9. Maintaining tourist satisfaction.

Three Dimension of Sustainable Tourism includes; Environmental, Socioculture, Economic = Stability of Destination

Environmental is defined as a relation to the natural surrounding and the implication of human activity on its condition which includes the natural and building components.

The quality of an environment is important for the success of tourism destination as well as for the residents and tourists. There are many attractions being built for tourist which generates environmental impacts.

Environmental Impacts can be divided into two:

Positive Impacts which covers:

• Conservation ; important natural areas, archaeological and historic sites, architectural character.
• Improvement ; environmental quality, infrastructure
• Enhancement of environment
• Increasing environmental awareness

Negative Impacts:

• Pollution; air, water, noise and visual
• Waste disposal problems
• Ecological disruptions
• Damage to archaeological and historical sites
• Land use problems

Tourism can be harmful to the environment but at the same time it is beneficial as it motivates the stakeholders to conserve resources. Raising awareness and providing new uses for neglected buildings by developing new attractions.

Socio-culture denotes the community of people living in a particular country with attitudes and behavior which characterizes them in a social group.

It tends to be given less attention as it does not give an immediate impact to tourism.

Advantages and Disadvantages;

• Heritage

Benefits; improvement in quality, greater attention paid to conserve

Negative; constructing without traditional architectural styles, theft of artifacts, censorship (not to upset tourists)

• Language

Benefits; interest in conversing local language if seen as an attraction

Negative; introduction of foreign words, pressured locals to converse with tourist whom are unable to speak the local language

• Religion

Benefits; growth in respect

Negative; loss of spirituality at religious sites

• Traditional Arts

Benefits; new markets, renewal of traditional art form

Negative; pressure of replacing and modifying crafts to meet the demand

• Traditional Lifestyle

Benefits; increases awareness

Negative; growing influence of foreign media, new eating habits.

• Values and Behaviour

Benefits; adopting positive aspects of tourist

Negative; growth of crime, reduces level of personal morality

• Host Population

Benefits; in-migration of dynamic people to the community, reduces depopulation

Negative; domination by immigrants

Demonstration effect; exposure of locals to foreign lifestyle which has an impact on local's expectations and lifestyle of their own.

Social Dimensions; (Swarbrooke 1999)

• Equity; stakeholders being treated equally
• Equal opportunities; both employees and the industry
• Ethnics; honest with tourist and ethical in dealing with suppliers
• Equal Partners; serving as equal as partners not as inferiors

Melayu Islam Beraja; a country ruled according to an established Islamic values and traditions by the Monarch - Society, Culture, National and Religion

Economic as the wealth and resources of a country, in terms of production and consumption of goods and services.

It is said to be the primary reason of developing tourism in an area, where it provides main force for tourism development as well as having an experienced growth in service sectors when traditional manufacturing sectors decline.

Advantages;

• Job creation
• Increase income to local economy
• Helps local business
• Regenerates and reconstructs economies when other sources are in decline
• Stimulates investments

Disadvantages;

• Low paid and seasonal jobs
• Opportunity cost; money invested in tourism cannot be used for other purposes
• Congestion
• Need of investing expensive infrastructure which is required for part of the year (Sepang F1 Circuit)
• Over dependence on tourism, host economy becomes vulnerable to changes in tourism market.

Multiplier Effect; income which circulates around the local economy in series of waves with the aim to maximize tourist expenditure and minimizing leakages of tourism income from local economy.

High leakage usually occurs in developing countries with the lack of expertise and heavy importing eg. Brunei.

Low leakage usually occurs in developed countries as they have expertise and secondary production.

Towards economically viable form of tourism;

• optimizing economic benefits while minimizing economic costs
• ensuring the wide spread of benefits among the economically disadvantaged sections of local population
• ensuring fair payment price for tourist's holiday experience
• sharing the cost of attracting and meeting the needs of tourist fairly
• protecting local business from unfair competitions
• reducing leakages from local economy

Stakeholders needs to be balanced as there is no point having policy of sustainability development of none anticipate with the policy. It is difficult to reach agreement with stakeholders due to there are many stakeholders involved in sustainable tourism development field.

A sustainable destination will recognize of satisfying all stakeholders in the long term, only several stakeholders have both compatible and conflicting interest.

Destination Stakeholders includes;

• Indigenous people who are the most important stakeholders as they live and work at the destination and provides resources to visitors. It is important to involve the local community in decision making and ensuring tourism does not bring unacceptable impacts to local people and their home
• Tourists in search of a satisfying experience with high quality service and well managed and organised destinations
• The industry being responsible of existing development and seeks adequate return on investment

 The industry;

Global Player; multinational, well resourced with capital, expertise and power. Often have limited interest and commitment to destinations.

Niche Player; traditionally small, family based with lack of capital, expertise, qualified human resource and influence of the destination.


don't mind me, i've got the toughest paper to revise for, and i am deeply in need of sleep. *sighs

Obsession.

...and that's my boyfriend, partner in crime, happiness and not forgetting love.

(talk about being obsessed)

Us.

I love you.

Three More.

Today was Introduction to Management, I managed to give answers to the required questions. I just hope this paper lands a Merit.

Tour Operation's result came out today, and I manage to bag myself a Merit. One down, six more results to go.


As of now, I am in need of some rest before doing another revision. Have a great weekend, cause I have a feeling I will. *smiles


17th October - Tour Operations 0830-1010
22nd October - Event Management - 0830-1010
24th October - Introduction to Management - 0830-1010
26th October - World Tourism - 0830-1010
27th October - Marketing for Tourism - 0830-1010
28th October - Sustainable Tourism - 0830-1010

Fingers crossed.

 Hopefully this will pay off. *sighs.

Just a little bit more.

Two papers down, four more to go. I actually didn't manage to re-read my notes cause the notes were all jumbled up and it was difficult for me to even reorganize it. *sighs. But nonetheless, I managed to pull it through with the whole paper.

Great news, we managed to get a distinction for our Marketing assignment. *wide smile.

As of now, I'm suppose to continue rewriting and reorganize what to read for Saturday's paper. *sigh.

17th October - Tour Operations 0830-1010

22nd October - Event Management - 0830-1010
24th October - Introduction to Management - 0830-1010
26th October - World Tourism - 0830-1010
27th October - Marketing for Tourism - 0830-1010
28th October - Sustainable Tourism - 0830-1010

In Need of Sleep.

I can't sleep, it is 3 in the morning and I have a freakin' paper to sit at 830 later, and I have not covered everything just yet. I dislike the notes given cause it is all jumbled up. *sighs. I think I'm still awake just because I'm a little worried about the paper and that I had coffee like 4-5 hours ago? *sighs.

Minshara Sayer.

A very happy birthday to you my girlfriend.

I miss you lots and we shall have a date very soon.

Love always, yours truly.

Five More To Go.

Finals just started yesterday, and hey it went well I must say. Well, I won't be blogging as much around this time. Got reading to be done with. *smiles

17th October - Tour Operations 0830-1010

22nd October - Event Management - 0830-1010
24th October - Introduction to Management - 0830-1010
26th October - World Tourism - 0830-1010
27th October - Marketing for Tourism - 0830-1010
28th October - Sustainable Tourism - 0830-1010

Best of luck to final year students!

Thanks!

Competition.

Something to go to on a Sunday!

Random Update.

Its the mid of October, and I've been given a lot of revision papers to do. *sighs. But it's okay, it gets me prepared and I'm determined that I can succeed with my final year. Not too confident now, but I am sure I could proceed to undertaking University level.

There's pretty much nothing to update but hey, keep on coming back for other random updates.

Friendship.

As time goes by, in our journey, we'll always find that some friends fade away and you never hear from them again, but at the same time through the journey of our lives, we make new friends to make new memories.

Thick and Thin.

It Has Been.

It seems like it has been ages since I last stepped on writing stuff, hasn't it?

My oh my, look at the time. It's October already, less than two months, 2009 is ending. Shitload of things have happened, both good and bad, and I'm not complaining.

My first week of October, started great. Attended the Sounds of Hope and it was worth it I must say. I've met new people last weekend and got reunited with old friends. It made me realize of how far things have gone, and I really appreciate the people around me.

It has been a year since I've slightly changed circles, and last weekend was a great one. I guess I needed it just to remind me who I am in other people's lives and to remind me who they are to me.

I really appreciate having those kind of circle of friends, or must I say family of friends in my life.

PS: Click this cause this means so much to a lot of people. A great singer-friend and a great adviser(sp?) friend did this.

Procrastinating.

"the act of putting off or delaying or defering an action to a later time" 

Yes, I am procrastinating, and I even googled it up again just because I can. I have an assignment due this Thursday and I am here, just staring into the screen because I don't wanna do it just yet. I know I should but I need some inspiration. I've gotta admit, the more I procrastinate, the more I get stressed about the whole thing getting done.

I've got another assignment due on the 15th and end test starts on the 19th and ends on the 29th.

Just another month goddamnit Fydah! Get your shit together and make your way through college!

Uni life next year and workload is going to be more than you're getting now! Pull your strings together before its too late!

I might just die of boredom.

I got so bored today after coming back from the Mister's and I ended up playing around with make up. Well atleast the make up wasn't a waste as I went out for a little bit to Mentiri to Raya with the family and head back home again to nothing, chilled downstairs infront of the tele cause I had nothing better to do. Pooz!

Back to college on Monday and here's to a couple of hectic months ahead!

330th Post.

I love this photo taken by my Abang Myrull. It's so candid. Well raya spirit just died on me. I don't really feel the festivities anymore. Boofreakin'hoo! Assignments piling up, I've got three assignments to hand in and there's one pending assignment and then mid October, say hello to end test! Woot woot! Fingers crossed I must say.

Well I don't have much to update, oh yeah, I bought a freakin' flash for the BBF. *smiles.

Second Day.

Second day of eid wasn't that bad. Drove myself to Tutong to meet up with the rest of the family. I must say second day was a tiring one. But nonetheless was a good tiring day.

I collected more dosh! *grins.

That's it for now.

First Day of Eid.

First day isn't that bad though the mister had to wear baju melayu, that's a little funny but nonetheless he looked good in it. *smiles. This year is a little different cause we didn't go to KB like the years before. We stayed in Bandar this year since there's no one in KB to visit.

We only went to three houses today, tomorrow is a big day just like the years before which is good i suppose.

Well that's it for my first day of eid. Have a good memorable one girls and boys around the globe!

Eid Mubarak.

I'd like to take this chance to seek forgiveness for all my wrong doings and sayings, judgements and everything else that I might have done directly and indirectly.

I hope you can find that little space in your heart to forgive me.

To all my family and friends, this is one of the days that we've all been waiting for, the day we all seek for forgiveness and here's to another year of Eid together.

Yours Truly.
Fydah AR and Family.

The Room.

As promised, for a friend, here's pictures of the room. I've no longer orange and red walls. I've no longer blinds as a curtains. Everything is new. Well some are. *smiles

Satisfaction Guranteed.

We finally finished our room make over project. The Mister and I worked 4 consecutive days and night doing my room.

We painted, we rearranged, we redecorated.

I am very much satisfied with the outcome and hello, new room. Its more spacious now. Post up pictures soon. Well maybe, but I will, for a friend that is millions of miles away from Brunei - that's you Belle. I'll post up pictures of the room soon enough. *smiles.

Fact!

Music.

I've thought about it quite a lot of times already and since I got bored, I stumbled upon an article saying Music Can Affect Your Mood, and I strongly agree. Why, How?

Here's the link : Music Can Affect Your Mood.

Holiday Mode - ON!

 

...but boy, you can keep it safe for me. *smiles

Nothing is wrong my heart, just a random post. I have pretty much nothing to say and we haven't started doing anything to my room. We might start on Saturday, and that means I have to clear some stuff out from my room later on. Seems like there's shit load of stuff in the room, I guess it's a good thing too cause my room's getting messier. It calls for some spring cleaning I tell you.

Well, my week so far is pretty much the same ol routine. School holiday starts this Monday, I must say I've got a few days sorted out already.

1. Start painting and rearranging the room.
2. Filming starts again for the Marketing assignment on Monday onwards.
3. Editing with the Mister on the Marketing assignment.
4. Celebrate Raya.
5. Tour Operation assignment.

Yeah, that's what's up for holiday, so far.

Ideas.

 

I am thinking of putting this up onto my wall under my air-conditioning, but  I have decided to put up pictures of our turtles instead. We have come to a start with buying necessities for the room like paint and all that. I must say, I'm utterly excited to start painting the room.

I have to come up with some more ideas with what to keep on the walls of my room. Well I should get going to thinking and browsing.

Refurbishment.

We have come to a point where we will be repainting my room and redecorating it slowly. We have decided to start painting either this weekend or starting next week.

We bought curtains last Sunday and that's the start to the whole refurbishing. As for now, I'm just googling away looking for some designs to put up on to my wall. It's either to put a wall quote or just simply a wall art or maybe nothing.

I actually don't have anything to blog about. *giggles.

I guess I'll post up pictures after we're done with the room. *smiles

Fingers Crossed.

Just sitting (well more like lying on my tumtum) infront of the laptop not knowing what to blog about. I miss how sometimes I can type out words regardless what my main point is. But hey! I'll try to start on typing some shit out. Just for the sake of blogging.

What's on my mind at this very moment is that how college is ending pretty soon. And Uni life is coming up. If I don't manage to get that scholarship, I hope, the parents are letting me go to further my studies. Eventhough it means I'll study in KL, I don't mind. As long as I can get a degree then yeah.

I just hope, he's still up for it, to start studying again, if he does, I'm going to make sure, I'll be there to make him study. *smiles. I just hope things go as planned for the best.

Uni life starts in 2010. Here's to 2010 "I think I'm ready for you!"

Thinking of the Future.

KL canceled due to unforeseen circumstances, but hey! Got cash instead! The start of saving up for end of the year's trip! *jumps with joy

Presentation done, and I think I did horrible, results for presentation will come out next week. *fingers crossed.

I've got a few more assignments in due, Management on the 8th, Marketing on the 28th and Tour Operation on the 30th. Sustainable coming out soon after one more lesson. I hope things will pay off. Just a couple of moths to go and I'm done with College!

It's that time where I've to think about Uni now. *fingers crossed. Hopefully things go as planned.

...you and me make perfect sense

Weekend.

I find it weirdly funny that someone's been stumbling upon my blog after googling my boyfriend's name. *giggles. Like, seriously? Why would you want to do such thing? I'm surprised.

Anyways, Alhamdulillah, Final Year Project Report done and submitted. 2130-0930 of brewing brain juices, thank you to Mr. Koo Jinchen for helping out. I must say without him I wouldn't be able to finish. Well, that's done, presentation and a few more assignments left. To pay the final year report off, me and the boyfriend will be joining Hafiiz and G to Kuala Lumpur this weekend.

Here's to the weekend. And this would be the first time I'd ever be going away on a plane with the mister! *grins

Re-think!

Just when you think I won't read and figure out who you talking about, that's where you are wrong.

I got bored, and I found this web page, wordle.net and I ended up making this..

By Your Side.

We come to love not by finding a perfect person, but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly. - Sam Keen.

i love you, Jinchen.

...i think i found myself a heaven on earth

My Angel.

I'm happy that I am progressing on my final year project now, with the due date just a couple of days left, I think I can make it.

Thanks to the mister for always there to help out. *smiles. Though today he helped a little cause he passed out on the bed. *giggles. And hey, look, I am such a poser cause I wasn't actually sleeping. I got bored doing work, and watching him sleeping on the bed made me wanted to sleep too, but I couldn't and I ended up taking pictures instead. *giggles.

Well I should get back to work now. *smiles.

...things will get done before we know it

Love.

"Love does not consist of gazing at each other,
but in looking together in the same direction."
- Antoine de Saint-Exupery

Turtles.

I haven't taken any pictures of the three little turtles, but hey, it's about time that we bought turtles. We talked about it quite a lot of times already and ended up getting turtles yesterday just before sending off Ezra to the airport.

Three little turtles, named Tiny, Abs and Kill.

Tiny is really tiny and that he keeps on hiding in his shell, a bit worrying though but to the sounds of it, he's doing alright. Abs, cause he's got detailed and cool abs underneath and he's the kind which just sits there and act all macho and cool. Lastly there's Kill, named after Ezra, he's the one that keeps on swimming towards its reflection as if it's going to kill it or something. *smiles

After naming all three, it came to a point where their names suited them. I'm pretty happy that we finally got little turtles. *grins.

You.

...and i'll always be by your side.

Nothing.

The second day of fasting isn't that bad, if I keep up like this for the whole month, I'll be damn proud of myself.

Back to college tomorrow and it would be a little difficult this time around, to control myself with ordeals in college and all that. *hits head. I hope I can survive my third day of fasting. Insya Allah.

The Mister is coming back home tomorrow! *jumps with joy.

...we've got our differences

No More Drama.

First of all, I'd like to wish all Muslim family and friends a Happy Fasting Month. I'm thankful that I have been given the opportunity to fast again within my 20 years of living to the big boss, Allah Almighty. Thank you so much for giving me another year to be fasting with family and friends. I survived my first day and it feels great to accomplish this, more to come.

So far, things are doing alright and I am glad I got some things back in hand. I must say the patience paid off and no shit that patience is virtue.

Yesterday went down to Kaybee with the Mister and the classmates. I must say it was more of lets go to Kaybee just because we can. *giggles. Assignments in progress so is the project. It's getting hectic each and everyday with the workload. *sighs

...he keeps me sane

I want more of this kind of days.

...you the fuckin' best, no shit!

The Outcome.

Here's a teaser, wanna look at the whole thing? Get onto my facebook, there's a whole album on it. *grins

Well, I must say, I've had a great day/night today. Dinner at the Mister's mom and afterwards, movie. *smiles. I've no idea how I can be so comfortable around there, but it is a nice feeling I must say.

...the nicest feeling in the entire world is when you're around

Jinchen Koo.

I haven't got a clue if you're the one, but I like you.
I'd be a liar if I said I didn't love you, I do love you.
I am happy where I am today with you.

...and hey! I love you, Jinchen!

Mind Manipulation.

I have learned that being intheknow is important, though how much it would crush your heart, it would still be nice to know. My head's been a little fucked recently. Just thoughts you know, the second you are separated from the other half, not knowing what they're up to, it hurts the head to think of things that could happen when actually nothing will happen. It sucks when you're head plays things that it shouldn't be playing, making you all insecure inside. Doubting things and all that.

I don't like it, but after just a phone call, I know nothing will happen because we know better than others.

...i know, things are way better than what people think

Mars and Venus.

I am sometimes a little confuse with things. I do not know why I can't tolerate with some things sometimes. I guess it's just because that I have this thing of believing what's mine is just mine and no one elses type of thing. I still don't get it why everytime I think about it, it just crushes me a little inside.

Jealousy is such a bitch. I don't like the feeling of such emotion. It hurts. I don't like sometimes I feel that your partner is hiding some things from you and all that, it makes me think everytime. It's a little crazy this game that we call love or relationship. Well not crazy, but tricky.

I've to admit I can be a little psycho in this, but hey, I'm just a female, females tend to think so much even about the littlest things and when we do, it just gets crazier by the minute. That's why, men find it hard to understand women.

A well spent afternoon.

It was Ezra's birthday on Monday, so we ended up going to Empire just to chill and everything from noon up until sunset. I must say, I had a good time with the Mister and as well as Ezra, it's good to have friends to be around eventhough us love birds get a little carried away but still, we manage to mingle around.

And so, we just finished celebrating my brother's birthday - Hafiiz, we had a little barbecue and it was okay. I had a little time spending with the mister just after school. It was real nice.

We just can't wait to come and attend Bridex this Saturday!

Well, that's a little update for now.

300th Post.

That is the hand, the hand I hold.
The hand I hold when we cross the road, the hand I hold while either one of us is driving.
The hand I hold when I'm in need, the hand that gives me support.
That is the hand of my boyfriend, that never fails to be around.
The hand that I put myself to sleep with some other days, nights.
The hand that will catch me whenever I fall.

Thank you.

Anticipating.

Just a picture from the night we celebrated/countdown-ed to my birthday, the rest of the pictures are in my facebook of which you can only access to it if you're in my friends' list. *giggles.

Well actually I don't know what to blog about. I'm running out of ideas. I've got shit load of things to catch up with especially school work cause I've been piling them up and it sucks that I've been procrastinating too much.

I just sent my first roll of film to the shop to be developed and saved into disc, I can't wait for the outcome, and I still have to learn to master everything about the Blackbird Fly. *smiles.

...it's the best feeling you'll ever get

Blackbird, fly.

Boyfriend just came back from Kuala Lumpur. I fetched 'em up at the terminal and I'm glad he's back.

Guess what he got me? Yes, the Blackbird,fly camera. The camera I wanted to get. He surprised me with this, asking me to close my eyes and hands out so he could give it to me.

I had the most surprised face ever in my life. And so I thought birthday's done, but I still get gifts. And I'm happy.

...thank you so much for everything, you've done so much!