It has come to an end.

It is the 31st Of December 2008.
In less than 24 hours, we will be welcoming 2009.

Everyone will be starting fresh with their lives.
I don't want to close my 2008 book because there are things left unwritten.
Whatever it is, my 2008 book will always be open. Correction my 2007 and 2008 book will always be open.
Never will i close it. Too much of good memories. :)

Well, i might be heading down to Miri this afternoon with my brother and G. :)

And i am guessing this is where i will be saying..

Happy 2009 to everyone.
Family and Friends, wherever all of you are celebrating, hope 2009 will bring more prosperity and a joyful year filled with happiness.

As for me, 2009, its time for me to study my ass off!
Scholarship! Scholarship!

To Cardiff from Brunei, i love you.. happy new year, lets start fresh. miss ya!

..i'll think of my resolutions laters.

Peace!

Knots.

Happy 50th Anniversary to my GrandParents. :)
Venue: Mi Casa. :)

Look what i found..



During Ka Eliza's wedding last year. :)

Where?

Everybody's telling me to wait for you to call back
Can you tell me where did he go?
But I don't never want another girl to come and get that.
Can you tell me where did he go?
My train of thought is gone and now you're running on the same track
Can you tell me where did he go?
And now you're leaving me to have to find out where you been at.

I'm a mess right now.
Out of order, I'm torn up I'm going down,
Won't you hold me together I'm pouring out.
I need you, that's how I feel.
I re-fuse to believe
You do
Not think of me
Like I do you
If I'm right then
Show me,
Come through,
I've been needing you lately.

People always asking why it's got me wearing all black.
Can you tell me where did he go?
Stressin' got the best of me I really need to fall back
Can you tell me where did he go?
Wish I never said that you and me can never go back
Can you tell me where did he go?
But I just wasn't thinking, can't you see I didn't mean that.
Can you tell me where did he go?

I'm a mess right now.
Out of order, I'm torn up I'm going down
Won't you hold me together I'm pouring out.
I need you, that's how I feel.
I re-fuse to believe
You do
Not think of me
Like I do you
If I'm right then
Show me,
Come through,
I've been needing you lately.

Need you
Tell me, tell me
Where did he go?
Where did he go?

I'm a mess right now.
Out of order, I'm torn up I'm going down
Won't you hold me together I'm pouring out.
I need you, that's how I feel.

Keri Hilson - Where Did He Go?

this song expresses my whole situation and how i am feeling.

Recall.

This is where i start to recall and pin point my accomplishments for the year 2008.

It is that time of year where everyone just takes a quick look back and move forward and start fresh on a very new year.

2008 has done its part for me. This is another year where i go through heaven and hell.

Let's see, earlier of 2008..

- i was still with Azmil Maidin.
- did my exams.
- did my driving lessons.
- started my attachment.

Mid 2008..
- end of August a sad romance story ended.
- made new friends.
- partied like there's no tomorrow.
- got caught by my parents.
- slacking like hell.
- lost weight drastically.
- Azmil flew off on scholarship.
- got my SE G900

End of 2008..
- done with attachment.
- worked 10 days with Au Lait.
- ZoukOut

That's pretty much it for my 2008. I'm still going through rough times until today. I just can't move on, though i think i am, but that's just being in denial. I haven't moved on since the break up - four months ago.

I didn't expect the break up, thought that it worked out until today. But clearly it isn't and it won't be anytime soon. I just don't know, i thought being far away and being apart from the person you love would make the heart grow fonder and all. Its working for me, but i don't know about him. Doesn't look like it.

Well i have to say, there's always a good thing and bad thing about 2008 for me. First of all, the whole good thing about it is i've made friends, i budget myself, i become more responsible and i still can smile eventhough my heart is broken into pieces. Never crossed my mind to even hate Azmil for what he's done to me. Infact, i love him still and i care alot.

Bad things that's happened in this year is all about getting caught about the whole drinkin' and lying to the parents. But after the ZoukOut trip i went independantly, i gained their trust back. So yeah. I've become more responsible eversince then. :)

I just want to thank everyone that has played their role in my life for being there for me, without you all being there and supporting me and rescuing me everytime i crash and fall, you are always there. Really big thanks to my family, Azmil Maidin, friends - old and new. I love you all.

Azmil Maidin, 2009 is near, lets be civilised and lets start fresh. I still love you. You have always been that person i think of everyday. At the end of each passing day, it's you i always think of and you will always be in my shattered heart. I love you. Have a smashing new year celebration and do take care of yourself and always be safe. I love you and soon i shall visit you. :)

Merry Xmas.

Firstly tis the season to be jolly, merry xmas to ya'll. :)

And so i stayed up all night last night. I only slept at about 730 in the morning. I couldn't sleep at all. Tried sleeping off to some series but i ended up finishing up one season of Entourage and Lipstick Jungle. Heh!

So Kay was asked me to lunch last night, i said okay and just to wake me up. Little did i know, i got woken up today for lunch, and i thought i was going out to lunch, but nahh.. Kay went fishing. Haha! Talongs wah si Talongs atu. Well i woke up had lunch with everyone downstairs and showered at about 3 and got myself ready and i went out alone.

Been going out alone lately. Couldn't be bothered to find anyone to accompany me. :) Its quite fun actually. So i got ready and all and i started going out to get cash, then i went to town for a bit and went to Qlap to check out shoes at Vincci, nothing caught my eyes and i ended up going to Qlap Mall where i bought myself VS' Pure Seduction's Body Mist at Shop @ Lisa Sarah's. :)

Then i went to Supa Save and bought myself some junkies. I bought Ben&Jerry's, Toblerone, Coated Green Peas and Fox's Biscuit. :) And just now went to dinner with the family. It was nice and it has really been awhile since we had a family outing. :)

Well that's about it today.

It has been 4 months and 2 days.

Last Week.

The itinerary went like this.

Thursday 11th December 2008.

Everything all packed up and afternoon by 330 left the house with Dad.
Dad sent me down to Muara Port. We all met up there and boarded immediately by 4
to head to Labuan. :) The boat ride took about an hour max. It was fuckin' wavy and made me feel sick.
We got bored in the boat and ended up taking pics. Will upload more soon.

So in this trip there was Me, Rats, Nads, Tubs, Fean, Erwin, Gman, Amsyar, Mizzie and Boogie.
All in the same flight.

So once we reached Labuan, we all went to the airport and checked in. Had dinner at McD.
Then we all boarded at about 8 and took off to Kuala Lumpur. :)

In the plane i couldn't sleep so ended up being one of those annoying passengers with Rats Nads and Tubs.
Haha! Well all in all we arrived about 15 minutes earlier and after the whole luggage thing met up with John and Jason.
We all headed down to the city and left our luggages at the hotel lobby and went to a Bollywood Restaurant near by and ate.

Checked in the hotel and partied a little.

Woke up the next morning to sort out our bus down to Singapore on the 13th. It costs RM40 to go down to Singapore using the Causeway Link Bus. It wasn't that bad. So Friday was alright. Met everyone up at Starbucks and all, headed back to the hotel where me and Nad stayed in and the rest went out. Woke up just in time for dinner and back to the hotel we did some baking. :) Everyone was pretty baked. Been awhile since i got baked. Ha! Its all good though. Then passed out pretty early.

Saturday came, and woke up by 7, showered and everything to catch the 10:00AM coach down to Singapore. The bus ride was about 5 hours. So reached Singapore about 4:00PM and sorted out the whole ticket and all that and went straight to the hotel where Mizzie checked in. And washed up. Got a van down to Siloso and kicked off with getting merchandise.

Kept everything in one locker and we all went to the main arena. :) Man, it was crowded. Night was really packed with thousands of people around the world. I'll let the pictures do the talking. :)

I'm glad that i went this year for it. For sure, i'm going next year. :D

So we went back to the hotel about 9:00AM in Singapore. Woke up by 1230 and headed out to have lunch and catch the 2:00PM coach down to Kuala Lumpur. This time it cost SG$30 back to Kuala Lumpur using the Alisan Bus. Reached Kuala Lumpur around 8ish 9 at night. Headed back to the hotel and pretty much washed up and all that.

Had a little session of our own and passed out. Monday came and John and Jason missed their flight. We all stayed up all night on Monday. Even packed our stuff only when our transfer got to the hotel. So we - me rats and tubs left the hotel about 5:00AM of Tuesday morning. :)

Got back home about 3ish and i passed out.

Twas a nice and awesome trip. Glad i went and glad my parents was alright with it. I'm looking forward to another trip like that. :)

Pictures will be uploaded soon. Some though.

Peace!

AM.

I miss you. Nuff said.

:/

Happy supposedly 16th Monthsary last weekend.

And i spent it without you at ZoukOut!

The Wassap Boy!

"don't make plans tonight cause i'm bringing you out. :)" this was that day..


"cause it's a sunday. most people wear white on a sunday cause its cooler than wearing black." this was when we met up at Taurean where Aslin was laughing to himself taking a picture of us holding hands under the table..


"Do you wanna join me watch Aslin play football?" this was the first time we watched football together.

i miss you.. i still remember every moment spent together..

Zouk Out!

Its this Saturday!

I hope i'll have fun. Have to clear the head up and not think of the should've, would've, could've been a 16th Monthsary. :(

Where is it?

where is me excitement? not excited at all.. well not just yet.
done packing already and i just wish i could pack YOU to KL and Singapore too!

Random Sunday.

Saturday Night At Chill.

New Cut.

What you think? :)

Moments.

I just came back from town. :) Had a drink with everyone at Chill. It was one of those nights where them Bang Lijan spinned. :) Reminds me of the last time i had a drink and went really drunk at Chill. Azmil was there. :) And i was drunk like crazy. Embarassed myself and yeah. He drove back home, i miss having him around. He'd always take care of me. :(

So i became responsible. I didn't drink much cause i had to drive myself back home and while driving back home, i remembered the whole Chill night out with everyone back then. Was fun and everything seemed to be just right.

Sigh. I don't know why, i really miss Azmil. It's been a while since i last heard his voice. See him and all that. Sigh.

Dear Almighty, show me a sign things will be alright sooner or later. I miss Azmil. :(

Sigh.

Wish you were back home. Wish you could be there with me for ZoukOut. Sigh.

I miss you Azmil Maidin.

Envy.

i am so envious of his friend.
his friend could do it, why could we?
eugh. i just wish i could just turn back the hands of time.

i went through his friend's blog and find it very sweet.
just 10 months, and still going strong. wow.

wish i was in that shoe. :/

Sigh.

and i still.. :)
missing you every single day..
counting dollars just to get to you..
see you next year.. insya allah..
i'm going to fly up to UK and pay you a visit..
trust me i'm going to save up! :)

i still..

Time.

i owe myself time alone.
sorry to say.
but yeah.

starting to build walls around me with a door that opens to
atleast 2 person.

#1. Azmil Maidin for sure.
#2. Koo Jinchen the person i talk to just to clear my head up.

I miss you, boy in Cardiff. :/

Hell-O. :)

First of all, Happy birthday to FeeQs.
You are 20 and getting old and cawie. :p
Haha! Anyhoos have a good one this year.
Mwaa!

Had a quite interesting weekend. :)
Highly appreciate the invitation from the Goonies.
I love ya'll.

Anyhoos, today is a new day, a new month and the last month of 2008.
So far 2008 isn't that bad. It does have its ups and downs.
Well for me.. it's almost as its dejavu. Been in the same situation before well not exactly the same.
Kind of lah. Heh. Eugh! I can't really type right now. I'll keep updating soon.

10days until i fly off. :/
And i miss Azmil Maidin and Aslin Murni, wish they came along for zoukout as planned.
Sigh. But nyehh.. You two will have to make it up when you both come back for good or something.
Please~ 0=)

Mwaaa!
Ciao!