Fucking Hell!

I CAN'T FUCKING GET OVER YOU!

Out there.

So today, as i woke up, i went straight for the showers. Koo called up to ask me to join him in town. Since i had nothing to do, i accepted the offer. So we met up at Coffee Bean - finally! I've been wanting to get a drink at Coffee Bean for sometime now. Nyehs.

Then we went for rounds at the Mall. I met Abg Jae and I tegur-ed Ka Alin. Went to RPS and then went for another drink at Au Lait. Met Dut and we bitched around.

Apparently you are the talk of the town - metaphorically speaking. I mean you are the talk of everyone amongst your friends. Well among everyone who knows you. And everyone is very much pissed and disappointed that you just ditched them and they're saying you're a hypocrite. Well actually you are. You used to talk how you hate people being in the light where you are right now. Heh.

Well everyone is kind of disappointed in how you just left me, and ditched everyone else. Ergh!

Dut's right, who else is close to you? There's only Dut, Aslin and Me. And you just ditched us. Man you really have changed. Sigh. What is happening to you!?

While talking to Dut, i was really at the edge of tearing up. I kept on saying to Dut how much i missed him. :/ And we talked about what he turned into. Seriously, what happened? Where's that boy who had a dream of furthering his studies, get a great job and help out his family? Dut really made me wanting to cry just now. I guess it'll happen sooner or later when i meet up with him (Dut) soon. Sigh.

And yes people, i get it alright? Yes i am getting skinnier. You try to be in my shoes, seriously. Fuck off and don't start telling me i've got to put on some weight!

Nyehh..

So yesterday, after work i went for lunch with Billah. And she was pretty surprised that i've gone skinnier. Nyehh.. Caught up with her. And we went to PGGMB to meet up Nana.

Left around 145ish and sent Billah back to MIPR and then fetch FeeQs at mummy's office and then headed home. And rest for abit. Then around 330ish left for Baiduri and then headed to Shi Kai to meet up them Aisya.

After that went home and showered, went out around 8, met up with Koo cause i asked him to accompany me to catch a movie. And we watched Babylon A.D, after the movies we went to Coffee Zone. Nyehh.. Oh i bumped into Ka Alin, Bang Jae and Syiq @ Superman. And yes, Ka Alin was surprised i've gone skinnier. She asked if i'm okay, i said i was but really after bumping into her, i went shaky. Superman was in a bad mood. And Ka Alin told me to eat. Nyeh..I'm trying to.. Sigh. Superman, i miss playing with him.

I still remember how i'd tell Superman to call Azmil poklen. Nyeh.. I'd always whisper to his ear and ask him "Superman, siapa poklen?" And he'll always answer and say it out loud so Azmil would hear "Keng Mei Poklen!!" awwhh.. I miss every bit of those days..

Yes, i know rumors are spreading that people are saying I'm Koo's girlfriend. Like what the hell right? I am NOT his girlfriend! We're just friends. What's with you people!? Ergh!

Anyhoos we went back around 1230ish.. Sent Koo back and headed home. Reached home just in time to catch the Arsenal game. I slept a few minutes before the game ended. Nyehh.. BUt Arsenal did win the match against Newcastle. So yeah that's about it really.

Oh apparently he's gonna leave for UK, i know he's not going to tell me, he'll just leave and not tell me. I know he will just leave. :(

i miss him..

2nd August! :D

as promised. these are pictures from my first angel beach encounter. enjoy~

oh this is the night where apparently people said i went missing.. nyehh..
fun night..

Thanks...

So today wasn't that bad. I didn't text him, i wanted to but i didn't..

The more i give in, the more he's going away. Sigh.

So after work i dropped by Koo's to pick up pictures of Angel Beach earlier this month. Will post up some pictures of that tomorrow.

Then headed back home and watched Sex and the City. One of the lines i picked from the series was "One day you'll wake up and you'll not recognise yourself.." Something like that. Nyehh.. True i guess.

Then i headed for the showers around 8, and picked up Koo, we were bored and planned to go for a drink at Coffee Bean which didn't happen because I wanted to eat McDs, which also didn't happen cause my eyes saw the Excapade signboard.

So Koo insisted we go for sushi. So we did. And awkward as it may seem, we were seated at the exact same spot where Azmil and I used to sit for our monthsary in February, and i gave out this awkward smile. Koo was like "ehh.. you just had to remind yourself ah?"

Well i can't help it really because, where ever i go, everything seems to remind me of him. Sigh. I miss Azmil.

Koo treated sushi and after that we went for a ciggy and walked around Gadong. Koo's being such a help, he's been keeping my mind off things and helping me keep busy. He's a good friend i must say. And surprisingly he knows Hafiiz. Funny how Brunei is small. Nyehh..

Well the night ended with another ciggy before i fetch my mom and sister at Rizqun and headed home.

Guess that's about it.

i miss you azmil maidin.

Virus..

This was taken last week. Ergh! This sucks. I'm getting the flu. Its all because of them people in the office is falling sick. Guess their virus is spreading in the whole office. Mann.. Headache.. :/

Fuck, what more can happen to me now? Aiyoo.. Ergh! I don't want to fall sick.. :( Please.. No? Hmm..

Well anyways, today nothing much is happening. Tomorrow Arsenal is playing. They lost last weekend's game. Boo! Though i didn't watch. Hehe. Anyhoos.. There's nothing much to talk about right now.

I'm just annoyed with this flu in progress. :(

A little more from last week..

Upon arrival.

Second round after sending Ratna home.

There's Nabil. I don't know. Azmi. Me. I don't know. Harris. Koo.

Please come true..

So last night's post was quite short on the engagement ey?
Well, it went like this.

We all stayed at home and waited for Grands to tell that they're on the way to Mentiri.
So around 8ish we - Mum, Dad, ae, ae's and I - left home and waited by the side of the road at the Mentiri highway. And convoyed with two coaches and bibi to Ka Ezan's place.

It was raining heavily that we - ae, ae's and I - was drainfully wet. Nyehh..
Then the ceremony started with prayers and telling what's the purpose of coming.
It was quite a small ceremony, nothing grand - yet!

So it all went well and left around 9ish? Headed home and ae told me to get chou yen. And i drove all the way to nearest shop to get chou yen. And yeah.. that's about it.

Stayed online until 1 i guess. Was kind of feeling like shit. Talked a bit with Feeqs, Zai and Koo. And i don't know what had gone into me, i was crying my heart out last night. Until i had this dream, which i smiled to, seriously, i was smiling. I felt it. I felt that i was smiling.

All because my dream was so sweet. Azmil was there. He came over. He apologised and everything. Wants to work things out and he surprised me with a gift. The gift was awesome! It was the phone I've been wanting. The Sony Ericsson G900. *drools* Sigh. If only my dream came true huh?

Well as the saying goes by Cinderella " A dream is a wish your heart makes."
and as John Mayer would say.. "When you're dreaming with a broken heart The waking up is the hardest part.."

AAAAARRRRGGGGHHHHH!!!

I love you so much. I have gone insane. I could not stop thinking about you. My heart is breaking. And it looks like pieces of broken glass. I love you so much! I miss every bit of you.

Bey.. talk to me please. :'/

I MISS YOU!

I am going crazy!

I've no life.

I miss Azmil Maidin.

Congratulations!

Congratulations to my dearest cousin, Zaki on his engagement to Ezan. :)

Too bad i don't have any picture. Well i just got back from the function. It was kinda a quick one really. Left home around 830. Headed to Mentiri to Ezan's place.

Okay i'm just too tired and my mind is just too messed up - again!

AKU RINDU AZMIL MACAM BAIE BABI BANAR EH! BARI MALAS EH CEMANI ANE!! AKU MAU AZMIL WAH!! AKU MAU BOYFRIEND KU! AKU MAU AZMIL! AZMIL! AZMIL! AZMIL! BAIK MATI NE CANI ANE!! AKU MAU AZMIL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

AZMIL AZMIL AZMIL AZMIL AZMIL AZMIL AZMIL AZMIL AZMIL AZMIL AZMIL AZMIL AZMIL AZMIL AZMIL AZMIL AZMIL AZMIL AZMIL AZMIL AZMIL AZMIL AZMIL AZMIL!!

AKU MAU AZMIL BAHHHHHHHH!!!!

Send me.. Please.. =/

God send me an angel

From the heavens above

Send me an angel to heal my broken heart

From being in love

Cause all I do is cry

God send me an angel

To wipe the tears from my eyes

Now you had me on my knees

Begging God please to send you back to me

I couldn't eat, I couldn't sleep

You made me feel like I could not breathe

Now all I wanted to do was to feel your touch

And give you all my love..

You know with each day that passes by, I pray to god I'll never forget who you are.

You mean everything to me.

I love you.

I pray,When it's time for me to say goodbye

I'll never forget looking in your eyes,

I pray,That I feel your touch And that God doesn't forget our love,

I pray,When I close my eyes,

I can still see visions of you on my mind.

I pray,That I see you in another life,

I pray that you still by my side.

Everything that you give to me,Only comes in a fantasy,

It seems like life goes by so fast,

But in this time I wanna make it last.

I hate that we live to die,But only God knows why,

We all have a purpose,

And to see you again it'll be worth it.

I wish that I could stop time,

I wish that I could rewind,

To the very begining of every second of my life.

To ask God on my hands and knees,

To never let me forget all my special memories.

See I'm only promised today,

And if it's my time to go,

I don't want the love of my life to ever fade away,

So one last timeLet me open my eyes.

To see what my life used to be like.

Princes and Princess.

Bibi Pidah + Danish Haikal.
Bibi Pidah + Arman + Danish.
Arman.
Damia.

So yesterday.. I went to visit my princes and princess.. :)

They're so cute that you just feel like squishing them.

I love them to bits. :)

I planned to go Gadong right after that but it didn't happen.

Cause it rained heavily.

So today, i went to the dentist. I had my General Check Up.

Then i asked for reference if i could get my lower teeth straightened up.

And i did the Xray and after that i went out for abit with Zai.

We drove to Batong to get her ic. Nyehh. Then headed to pick up Faiz.

And head home and sent Eyah to school and now here i am at work.

Oi! I miss Azmil! Bitch eh! =/

Cuckoo!!

I have gone cuckoo bananas. I've been downloading songs since morning.
I've got nothing to do at work. Nyehh.. Well since i came clean with the parents, i haven't been out of the house for 2 nights straight.

But tonight i think i might just go out for a bit. For a LEGAL drink and grab a cd from Koo. Maybe, just maybe. Sigh. If only he's around, i won't have to think what i'm going to do after this.

Usually after work, pick him up from work and either send him back home or go my place first then we go out a bit then i send him home.

Kamu...... Aku rindu Azmil.
I know FeeQs is going to say, "Awu kau rindu ia, ia rindu kau kan?"
It'll always be like that if i say something about him. She'll always have to snap me back into reality. Shheeessshhh! Qahh.. Aku mau Azmil.. (yes, imagine it looking like the other day i said it to you at the beach) that's how i'm feeling.

Well, i'm done for now. Just 20 minutes away and it'll be time to go home.

Azmilku, I miss you. :/

Easier to lie..

Yes, I've got the title off Aqualung's song. It made me think, of course its easier to lie. Lie to the whole world that you're alright when you're actually feeling messed up right inside. Things are crumbling down just like and avalanche. Is that how you spell it??

Yes, i still call him my boyfriend, i actually do cause i still feel I'm in a relationship. I know I'm just lying to myself, but it just makes me feel better inside. Yes, very sad indeed but what can i do? I'm just in love - still. Can't help it.

I still have hope but i'm keeping it on the down low. I know, i still believe one day, some day he'll come around. But seriously, i've to keep myself busy so that i won't let this bother in my head. Nyeh. But seems so hard to do so.

Everywhere i go, there's always something reminds me of him. I miss you Azmil Maidin. I really do. I want you right here! :/

Something..

Things i miss about you..

1. I MISS YOU.
2. I miss having you around.
3. I miss having you to talk to.
4. I miss having you to be silly with.
5. I miss having you to laugh with.
6. I miss having you to make me smile.
7. I miss having you to tell me everything will be alright.
8. I miss having you to have random outings with.
9. I miss having you to hug.
10. I miss having you to kiss.
11. I miss having you to hold hands with.
12. I miss having you to tell me stuff.
13. I miss having you to sleep with.
14. I miss hearing your voice.
15. I miss having a shoulder to cry on.
    
16. I miss smelling the scent of your perfume.
17. I miss hearing your jokes.
18. I miss the texts.
19. I miss the phone calls.
20. I miss being at your place eventhough i feel out of place. But still i can manage to be comfortable there.
    

The list just goes on..

...nyeh

aku rindu Azmil!!!
:/

awu, rastafied colours nya.. nyehh..
pacah~ mm.. mmm.. mmm..

i am trying, trying so hard to not let it bother me. Try to let it go and just move on. But seems like i can't do it. I really can't. I don't want to give up. On the back of my head, its saying, that this is just a phase he's going through and one day he'll realise. i know he will. one day, some day.

Boy, this is so hard. I don't want to let go of what we had together. Oh my god, everything is like in the past tensed. :( Geez! This sucks!

Boy i miss you. Eventhough i tell people "yeah fuck it, i'll be alright" actually it won't and i say that just to make people stop telling me what to do, telling me move on and shit. I don't want to! I don't! I want Azmil bahhhhh!! :(

Cute..

Eyah's been so belabih lately.

Eyah: I make up my mind babu.
Mum: Make up your mind apa?
Eyah: I don't want to kawan abang Azmil.
Mum: Pasal?
Eyah: Pasal he change his mind.

Cute ah? Skati nya kan inda mau kawan orang.

And today my mum told me another one..

Eyah was complaining about her tooth and she went and told my mum..
"Kalau sudah nada gigi Eyah, Eyah mau buat gigi Eyah close macam abang Azmil"
Mum: Eh? Babu pikir Eyah inda kawan abang Azmil?
Eyah: Awu Eyah inda kawan tapi Eyah mau buat macam abang Azmil, close bah close.

Close = Braces.

Nyeh.. Makes me even miss him more..

Think??

Good morning.. No, i'm not alright just yet. I slept again for more than 8 hours. I slept from 6 yesterday after work until 7 this morning. Yeah, my mind was pretty much everywhere.

And today, i am going to think where to go.
I want to fly away for awhile.
Just to get away from reality.
Sigh.

Anyone wants to join me for this trip?
Where shall we go?
Singapore? KL? Bangkok? Bali?
Hmm..

Well.. I hope today will be alright..
I miss you - Azmil. Sigh.

My yesterday..

I know i haven't updated what happened yesterday. So hold onto your seat and have the shock of your day today.

Went to work as usual. Mum picked me up from work and from there, my life just fucked up even more.

Mum: So how's work?
Me: Its okay. Nothing much.
Mum: No one at work you could talk to or anything?
Me: Nope. Cause semua tua-tua and boring.
Mum turns down the volume and said : Can i talk to you?
Me: Why not?
Mum: This is not about me, but this is about you. Is there something you want to tell me about?
Me: Nope
Mum: Sure? Because i know what you have been doing.
Me: Like?
Mum: Drinking!?

and it went on and on until we reached home. Ofcourse i brokedown. And she said i had to confront dad and come clean. Well after lunch went back to work. Feeling fucked and everything else.

Didn't have anyone to talk to. So i just blurted out some to Koo and Kay. Which still didn't satisfy me much. Cause their not the person who i'd usually run to. Sigh. If only Azmil is still around, he'll always help me in any situation. Sigh.

So after work, i went home and i left for Bunut around 6.
While driving otw to Bunut, i was thinking to myself whether it was the right move to do, sending off his stuff, well some really, i still kept a few of his shirts. Nyeh, i couldnt resist but keep some. And i realise from that moment i am missing and losing someone i truly care about. And as i reached his place, Ka Lina came out and i passed her his stuff and asked "this is the right thing to do right?" and she said yeah and passed me my jacket and said "Take it easy yeah?" and i just gave her like a broken smile. And i left.

As i drove away, tears started to come down. I miss that boy and i don't even know when will i ever see him again.

I went to my grands for abit and headed home.
And i confronted my dad. Which led to an hour and a half lecture.
Started off with drinking, to smoking, to break ups, school and everything else.
And i apologised for what i've been doing.

I still feel crappy, eventhough i've come clean.
I need Azmil. I need Azmil to talk to. I know he'll understand my situation better than anyone else. Sigh.

Azmil Maidin, please? :(

Eugh!

yes, i know.
i look so fucked.
i can no longer hold it back. sigh.

I FUCKING MISS AZMIL. :'(

Sad Fuck!

I have been hiding my emotions about this.
I've been pretending things are alright.
Partying and socializing does make me happy, but its just an act.
To keep myself busy and my mind off things.

Apparently nothing is working.
Parents are very concern and they found out i drink.
Well my mum did, and i had to confront my dad.

My life is so fucked now.
Its been a month since i last met/heard from Azmil.
I need someone to talk to.
Someone who understands me.
And that someone is Azmil.
Sigh.

Yes, i know this is another sad post.
Eugh! I miss Azmil. I want Azmil. :'(

Fucked..

Why do i feel crappy today? Sigh.
I know i shouldn't be this way.
I miss having Azmil. Sigh.

Things are fucked eversince he left.
I can't be myself.
I miss Azmil. :(

I need a hug, just like that one up there. Sigh.

A little more..

Ratna. Nabil and Me.

Niessa, Putera and Me.

Koo and Me.

Abg Mashy and Me. Family! :)

Downhill..

1. Lost a boyfriend.
2. Got ratted out on drinking.
3. Pressured.
4. Leave me alone.
5. Fuck off!

what more can happen to me? not that i'm asking for anything else to happen.
It's just too soon. Sigh.

My life is so fucked!!

Responsibilities.

I realised something.
Before, partying for me was like a must to get wasted
and go really "friendly".
But recently, i've realised that at the last 4 parties i went,
i drink alot but at a point i just know my limit.
I don't get too drunk cause i know i've to drive.

Responsibilities of being a young adult just kicked in.
I'm guessing. It's good though.
And if you guys be thinking something else happened when i crashed at Koo's,
nothing happened, we just talked and he passed out and i passed out 10 minutes after on the couch.

I am not letting something stupid happen yeos.

Top of the morning..

Morning people.
Hmm.. let's see..
Oh i stayed at home and i ended up packing stuff and washing the car.

Then i bummed around and was online. That was about it.
I talked with the sister. Nyeh..

Cause i told maybe today i am dropping by to send his stuff.
Oh goodness, this is hard.
I want to do it, but its hard..

I can't decide. :/

Well fasting is just round the corner.
Oh Aslin's leaving on the 14th.
BooHoo nada White Boy in Brunei for quite sometime.

A Few..

Putera and Boogie.

The crowds.

With Olivia and Koo.

That's Harris and Jazz.

Crowd down the beach.

Just a few pictures i could find from other people's blog.
Will keep on searching for more.

As i said. Even though rain was pouring down heavily,
it did not stop everyone from dancing on the beach.
The scene was better than the last one.

This one was really happening yeos!

Hmm..

What a night. So i headed out to meet Min for a bit around 7, and talked a bit.
Left her place to head to Ratners and went to Gadong met up Koo and John.

We - me, Ratners and Koo headed to Bunut, met up with Rio for a bit.
We left Bunut around 1030 and the rain kept on pouring down.

First stop Empire check out the scene there and it was dead.
So we decided to go down to Angel Beach.
Convoyed with John down to Tutong.

There met most of the TTS Seniors and two cousins.
The night was awesome. Me and Koo sent Ratners back around 2ish.
And i ended up going back to Angel Beach with Koo.
Before that we met up with Azmi and Zul in Gadong.
Then only we - Me Koo convoyed with Azmi down to Angel Beach.

And the party didn't stop. It was 345ish and it was still on.
And me and Koo decided to leave around 6a.m.

I crashed at Koo's. Had this heart-to-heart talk because i was "ending".
I was really deep. Its been awhile since i had a decent talk with someone.
It was really nice to actually talk about it and the background music
was alright. I mean it made the talk scene even nicer. And dozed off around 9.
I woke up around 12ish and bounced from Koo's and headed home.

It was a great night though.

And at home, i had to force myself to pack some of his clothes and put it
in a box, along with the one year gift. I'm a little messed up.
Trying so hard to indulge reality.
I don't want to, but i guess its the only way?

One day, Some day.

Weekend is here!

After work i went straight to RPS to get that. :)
Isn't it perrrtttyyy??
Hehe!

So after that i went back home, had a little to eat and headed to send Eyah to school. Back at home stayed a little while and headed out to Gadong to meet up with Koo and also Dinkers for a bit.

Then left Gadong around 4, sent Koo back and i went home. :)

Now here i am, just thinking what to do right after this.
Oh, i'm going to head to the showers, then get ready with the hair and what not.
Then later tonight head to Ratners pick her up, go empire and then the night will begin there. :D Oh, i'm sleeping over Ratners tonight. ;)

Peace ya'll have a great weekend!

Will I?

will i be better off without you?
i don't think i will.

getting a hold of myself.
this is crazy.

anyhoos, you tell me if you could find a girl
that's been through what i've been through
with what you have done.

find a girl who's been this patience and waited this
long and didn't even think of giving up.
you tell me, is there any other girl just like me?
sigh.

Changes.

Dedicated to you.
Broken - Kelly Rowland.

Broken, broken
How could you leave me
Broken, broken
I can say I erased you from my mind
and never think of you
And forget about the friends we made
if that's what I need to do
I can act like the only that you exist
is in a dream
It's the only out of my reality
I can change the channel every time
our favorite show comes on
And get mad at the radio 'cause they
just played your favorite song
I can find another guy and try to
love you out of my life
But it just gets harder every time I try
Oh, that's why I'm...
Broken
And it's hurting me boy, cause you just left me
Broken
And because of you I don't know if I can
Love Again
But I can't believe, boy, that this is the end
Be together once again
Cause boy I'm broken
Broken, broken
How could you leave me
Broken, broken
I can take the pictures that we took
and throw them all away
And every letter that you wrote, boy, I wanna
forget what you had to say
Cause I'll never understand what you
did to me on that day
That's the only part I wish you could replace
Can't you see I'm
Broken
And it's hurting me cause you just left me
Broken
And because of you I don't know if I can
Love Again
But I can't believe, boy, that this is the end
Be together once again
Cause, boy, I'm broken
Oh, if I had a choice
Baby you'd still be right here with me
And, if you give me a voice
Baby, I'd tell you I don't want you to leave
Cause, boy, I'm broken
Broken, broken
How could you leave me
Broken, broken
How could you leave me
Oh can't you see I'm...
Broken
And it's hurting me, cause you just left me
Broken
And because of you I don't know if I can
Love again
I just can't believe, that this is the end
Don't wanna feel this way again
I can find another man
I don't wanna be broken

Thank you for playing a fool out of me.
But none the less, i'm not giving up.
Though you've won this time around, i am not giving up.
There's still a little hope in me.

Honestly, i'm telling all of you.
After this, I don't want to be in any relationship anymore.
I'm done being hurt!
I'm done with relationships!
I'm done having my heart broken over and over again.

Every move i did in all my relationship i thought was right.
But it never was right.
I'm a terrible girlfriend, don't be with me guys.
Don't even think of it.

Yes, i am fun and everything else at the beginning.
But along the way i'll just drive you crazy and eventually you'll get bored of me and you wished you never dated me in the first place.

Boy, you changed my life.
One Day, Some Day, Maybe you'll realise.

You have been..

Why am i beating myself up?
I shouldn't be, right?
Sigh.

I just miss you.

Every night, i'd pray you look my way.
The times we spent keeps on playing in my head.
Every chou yen i have, isn't fun, cause there's no one to
talk to while waiting for it to finish.

Ohh goodness gracious, i miss you baby.

Why am i beating myself up so hard?
Sigh.

One day, some day.
Azmil Maidin you have been missed.

I still love you.
I believe in you, in me and in us.

I'm here, always.
You are being missed always.

I MISS YOU!

*get a grip of yourself Fydah. He'll come around. One day, some day, he will. Just keep yourself occupied*

Tagging.

State 15 weird things/habits/little facts about yourself and tag your friends. No tag backs!


Let's start..

1- I tend to talk to myself.

2- I pretend i'm alright when i'm not.

3- Once i'm home, i don't go out of my room. Seriously.

4- When i get tipsy,i tend to talk alot and jibberish.

5- I love getting those big bugged shades.

6- I eat alot but i don't gain.

7- I can't decide immediately.

8- I sleep alot.

9- I keep things to myself and oncw i let it out, i let it all out.

10- I cry at night lately.

11- I love taking pictures, yes i am vain, but currently the camera is off!

12- I talk alot.

13- I've got tonnes of friends. I think i have more guy friends than girls. I think.

14- I tend to get bored when there's nothing to do.

15- I tend to drive really fast but still manage to drive safely. Alhamdulillah.

Tagging: Belle and Esah.

Tsk Tsk Tsk.

i want one. soonly will get one. once ada allowance. or maybe ka-ching ching from mummy. :D imma get one. Hee.

Anyhoos, back at work. I've nothing to do. Thus posting all these useless thing.

I'm keeping my distance, keeping it low profile these days.
You can consider it as hiding. Come out once in awhile.
It's best to do so yes?

Keepin' it real yeos! Haha! Kesian jua si Fydah ane eh, cakap sorang diri. Hehe!
Okay shut up! Don't start being that psychotic girl, the last time i did that, supernatural things happened in my room. Thus no good.

*screams inside*