A Little Lost.

Ever thought of the future?
Ever thought of how would life be then?
Ever thought who would still be by your side?
Ever thought where life will bring you?

Life is just difficult to understand.
People come and go out of our lives,
leaving scars - good and bad.

It doesn't matter how things are,
but you know, in this life time,
when you think about it again,
when you're old,
it'll surely puts a smile on your face.

Knowing that every person that came into and out of our lives,
some what made us who we are now and then.

From mistakes after mistakes we've made,
we learn to understand and not to repeat it again.
From getting to know people from the start,
From getting use to getting your heartbroken,
and healed once again.

Just thinking of how things should be,
but they just don't go as you wish.

i just haven't got a clue where life is bringing me.

Thank You.

Who ever thought, that this night would have brought me closer to you until this day.
You just don't have a clue how thankful i am that you, you were there through my rollercoaster ride.
And here we are going through our own rollercoaster ride.
Thank You.

:)

Bring Me Flowers - Hope

Fun.

And so today wasn't that bad at all. Know why?

1. Got woken up by KJ's text, him asking whether I want him to send me to school at 630am.
2. I skipped school instead and went for my check up at the clinic in the morning.
3. Stayed in the whole afternoon with KJ at his.
4. Went back home about 730ish.
5. Family dinner.

Yeah that's why.

12 full hours with KJ. :)

Thoughts.

..and i just got back from dinner with KJ.
We had london kebab. It was surprising to receive a call just 5 minutes after i woke up from my nap.
"aww.. is she still in bed?"
"i'm two minutes away from yours." he says.

It was a surprise to me that he didn't hesitate to come round after sending his brother.
And as i jumped out of bed, changed we headed to london kebab for a quick dinner.

He was telling me, how he's thinking of the day i get my scholarship and leave.
He says it's depressing how he could even think about it. I didn't want him to think of it. It's a year ahead and it scares me.
But he had the most comforting words coming out of his mouth, as i said, "..but we've got Skype what?"
"..what say i come and live there?" he says. That made me smile.

And i encouraged him, to come if i do leave and reminded him to come and study. I'll make sure of it he'll study his ass off.
I don't really care that much as long as he's willing on to do so. :)

..and boy how you just make my day

Conference.

I had a pretty nice sunday. Woke up pretty late and had lunch with the family at Maharani. Just then we went to Empire for Sunday Splash. I only managed to get to see Boy for a brief 5 minutes, cause my swim stuff was at his and so he had to send it over as he was gonna head to B's place to start on his work. :)

I'm happy for him that this year, he says it has been going fine so far. Helping out the dad, working with B on filming and editing. So far, everything's fine for him. :) Planning on redoing his AS sometime next year or something. :) It's good, it's great.

Well as splashing was done, headed home straight away, went on conference call with the besties - Min and Belle.
For less than 4 hours. Oh goodness me, it was fun. Min talking like a robot, Belle's grandmother on the background, me laughing to whatever. It was good to hear from you girls.

Please come back home soon. Like really soon. :) Well, i should leave this post here. Got to head back to college for a little bit. :)

hugs and kisses everyone.

... thank you for the whole day yesterday.

Another Day.

See that oval shaped lamp? That's a new lamp. Courtesy of Koo Jinchen. :D
We're planning on to do more make over for my room. We're doing it slowly. Hehe. I hope it'll turn out nice. Knowing my touch and his, it'll be like *BAM* nice looking room.

Next on the list, cupboard door, walls, and lamps some more. :D

Handy dandy day.

.. and so today is just different.
oh so different that i had a good time with you.
getting stuff done.
and not forgetting thanks for being my handy man.
and that new lamp for the room, thanks.

Intoxicated.

..and boy i had a great night out with you.
..and boy what i would love to wake up to is you.
..and boy knowing i'll see you soon makes me smile.
..and boy i'd want to thank you.

..and boy, know what i'm saying is true.

..many hugs and kisses to your way. :)

A..

better one than the last edit. :)

Dearest.

Dear heart, please don't break.
Be as strong as you can.
Don't build walls around you.
Building walls isn't the best answer to everything.

For once, just keep beating.
Beat for the things that makes you happy.
The things that make you laugh, smile and cry.

Never settle down for less when you know you are worth more.
Never let someone break you again.

Dear heart, hear me out.
Please would you just tell me what do you really want from the world that we're living in.

Fydah AR.

Oh so trying.

i haven't been writing much like really write what's in my mind.
things have been rather fine. just fine that sometimes it's just hard to understand.

what are we? we're complicated.
what am i to you? your complication.
how long is this going to stay complicated? we have no idea.

i'm trying, trying to understand the situation of this so called complication.
i'm happy being in this with you, but at times i just wish it wasn't this complicated.

there are words needed to be said, but it wouldn't be right.
there are things needed to done, but it wouldn't be right.

being complicated is really complicating things.
but never the less, you'll always be the best complication. :)

Procrastinating.

I have been procrastinating ever since i've got my assignments given and my final year project. Eugh! I haven't started a single thing on any of it.

I've got Tour Operations due on the 29th of April and World Tourism on the 5th of May. *hits head. I haven't printed out my questionnaires for my final project. Eugh! I've just got to stop procrastinating. Like quick!

Dislike.

I dislike arguing with you.
It's never nice and it's never a nice feeling being mad at you.
We're just so complicated that we act as if we're dating.

and just so you know, i missed you last night and today.

Thank You,

After so much waiting.

I now own a new laptop.

Say hello to the all new..

ASUS F80.

Thank you Mother for getting me a new laptop. I love you!

Inspiration.

I got this idea from my phone. Pretty inspiring. :) What a night.

Truly Amazing.

This was thursday night.

So last night we had a barbecue at the Stadium's skatepark. It was a great turn up. Alot of inliners came with their girlfriends, wifeys. :) All in all.. the night was truly fun. :) I was mainly the cook. But it was all good.

For the guys it was Skate, Eat and Drink. For me it was more to Cook, Eat and Drink.

The night ended at about 1230. :) FUN!

On Hiatus.

will be back when i get a new laptop. :)
my old one crashed on me.
much love.

Proboscis. :)

A shot of the Local Proboscis Monkey.

SOAS Mosque after edit.

Water Taxis. After edit.

Yours Truly. After edit.

Editorials.

Thank You.

Presenting the JollyGreen-T. :) After having a cigarette to head into the cinema to catch Jangan Tegur. Fuck that movie scared the shit outta me.

This is after the movies. Hafiiz and G didn't want to sleep in my room. So I had to make KJ stayed until the morning last night. He left at about 545 am. That's what he gets from bringing me along to watch a scary horror movie.

And this is just now in the afternoon.
While chilling and watching people skate in Lambak. :)

Early breakfast.

Though we're just like 5-8 minutes away. :)
He makes me smile in real life and virtually.
Don't bother him looking very serious, got his creative hat on.
Thus the seriousness. Ha!


Kitchen. What does that mean? He's cooking. Cooking Indomee 3 in the morning.
For... Wait for it.. Wait for it..
Yours truly! Hehehehe! :D
I have gone RAWR *stomp *stomp *stomp hungry.. :P
So sweet of him to even cook and send it over.. :D Hehehe!

Ten minutes later... Taddaaa~


And then.... he went back home straight after sending me indonmee and continued on webcamming..


This is much fun. Really. :)

Recent Edit.

My recent edit. Just managed to do one for today. :)

Just A Little

 

A collage of some pictures that i've got. :)

Unfortunate.

And my Saturday night was suppose to go to this thing at JP. It was a jazz thing but unfortunately couldn't go cause KJ had a family gathering thing. So ended up staying at home until he's done around 10. Went to Fountain and had coffee. Hafiiz and Zul Niggs joined us for abit. Then we - KJ, Zul Niggs and I went to KJ's to chill some more. And so the night was alright. :)

Splurged.

Yesterday, I went shopping.

I bought myself a pair of heels, Victoria's Secret products and my toiletteries(Sp?).
I spent about 80+ in total. Heh! And today, i bought myself a dress. Pretty!

Well that's for now. Update later.

Movie Night.

And I just got back. I went out tonight to have dinner at Misato and also to catch Fast and Furious 4. Night isn't that bad. Glad I manage to have a good time tonight. :)

April.

And so, holiday's over. Back to school. Pictures above taken today(Wednesday).
Wednesdays = Half days. Thus I spent my afternoon until I had to pick up the lovebirds from airport with KJ. :) Had many fun.

Oh yesterday, we were so random that we went to Giant to be silly. Haha! And the night before i had a girl's night out with them Neggerettes. :) So far, everything has been fine. :)