Human.

We're just human. We feel and care too much about things.
All I've got to say is, be there for one another.
Prepare to catch one another when all fails.
Show your helping hand.

Because at the end of the day, the little efforts you do, matters most to others.

Be there for your friends when they need you.
Lend a helping hand.
Cheer them up.
Just be there for them.
Have their back no matter what.

Have Faith.

Hope everything will be all fine. *fingers crossed*

Complicated.

This feeling, it's a little new. A little weird.
It's been awhile, but nothing compares to what I've felt before.
It's not what I call love.

It's more of a like. It's a little complicated that way.
Who am I? Where do I stand?

At the end of the day, it doesn't really matter.
As long as I have you near, that's enough for me.
To keep me going. To keep me smiling.

Thank you for this complication.
It's new.
It's great.

Beach Break.

So today, had an early start. I woke up at about 730, got ready and all that. Picked up Ratna and then headed to Tutong beach. :) We came first and then we waited for the rest to come. :)


Had quite a lot of pictures taken and I, invited KJ to join us. As he came, we walked along the beach and played in the water. Hehe! :) I am tanned, very tanned. :/

I had so much fun.

Happy Birthday!

So we celebrated G's birthday yesterday. We started off with the well planned surprise at The Arch. And later on the day, had coffee with them at Taurean Too and she kindly invited KJ and I to sushi. After sushi, we went to Au Lait for quick coffee and afterwards headed to mine to chill at the garage.

It was nice, at the very least I was home by 1030. Chilled, online with everyone else at the garage. The love birds went in about 1 and KJ left about 330ish this morning. :)

Twas a nice night actually.

And here are some of the pictures. :)





















With Love,
Fydah AR.

One Fine Day..

Yesterday went out with Ratna. She asked me to accompany her out to sell off some stuff cause she really needed cash. And then we went to Patisserie to have something cold to drink with KJ. Then went to Jubli Park to walk around for abit. :) And we went to the stadium to watch people skate. :)

A dose of Kookie.

And so.. :) yes you must know what that means.

So I went to bring Nad, Din and Zai out just now. While on the way to town, I ran out of credit, and surprised that someone sent me credit. I was like ey? And straight after a few seconds, got a call from KJ. :)

He was asking what I was doing and all that. I was relieved to get a phone call from him. It was unexpected. Thought i wouldn't be seeing him for a while. And he insisted to see me just now. I was actually thinking of seeing him just now, but i ran out of credit. So thought i'd just him space.

But yes, as we sat at chill alongside Hafiiz and G, KJ came along. :)
It really made my night just oh so normal again.

Like he said and i qoute "Its crazy that its just been 3 days." Yes just 3 days, that little change of not seeing each other really was strange and weird. Pheww.

Everything is out in the open.

and finally, i get my dosage of Kookie atlast.

PS: i'm over you. is that too soon for you?

..Realise.

It is either too soon or too late to tell that I just realised that I'm over you.

Something..

Hey, i think this is going to be a quite long post.

So couple of nights ago, something bothered me so much that it made things changed. So i talked with Azmil online the other night, he was saying things about us not going to happen anymore and i should be happy and not wait for him. This happened just right before i had to go out for dinner with Koo.

So i was awfully quiet, it bothered me so much that Koo had to ask what is wrong and what did i have in mind that bothered me so bad. I just had to say it has nothing to involve him and i wasn't ready to talk to him about it just yet. It made him worry me saying that.

So at the end of the night, we just had to talk about it. 6 Hour long online conversation. I know for the fact that we have been so in denial about each other. After the change, i realised, what Azmil said doesn't really bother me anymore, what bothers me is Koo and I aren't seeing each other for a while, and yesterday was strange that i didn't hear from him at all and not seeing him is harder than i thought.

I may still have feelings for Azmil, but apparently Koo has a bigger effect in my life.
It's just depressing how we're not seeing each other for awhile. Eugh! I hate this change.



I miss my dosage of Kookie.

Difficult.

I miss you. Not you. But You.
I need my daily dosage of You.

New Moon.

I've picked up the liking of reading. And that's a good thing. And i just bought the second book to Twilight. :) I am loving the whole reading thing now. It's so unusual of me though, but it is about time to. :)

March So Far..

Will write on the next post.

Oh! I talked with Azmil a couple of nights ago. :)

.. yay!

And the parents are back from KL.
Got a few shirts and a universal charger for the Minolta.
I'm crossing my fingers, i hope it works. If it does, then WOOT! Back to more pictures in this blog. YAY!

Had hightea with FeeQs at Kopitiam this afternoon. And we caught up with things.
It was nice. Seriously.

And now.. i'm gonna go get ready to have dinner. Hehe! :D

OGDC.

And i had a school trip to OGDC today. Was pretty a tiring trip. Especially with only having less than 4 hours of sleep. Eugh! And i got to meet Zean after i have no idea how long. Mehh.. Well i guess that's about it for now. Knackered much. Think i'm gonna take a short nap before heading out - which i doubt i'll be going out tonight.

and knowing the fact, excites me..

Wait For It.

Updates tonight.

Rants?

Well, lets see. Hmm.. Dunnoe eh! Eugh!

Oh yes. It's March. :) And we've got the end of the month planned out already.
We'll be celebrating a post birthday celebration for G in KK. :)

So in this trip, it'll be myself, Hafiiz, G and Koo - for now.
Koo and I will be driving down to KK. Hafiiz and G is still thinking either to drive down to KK or they'll catch a flight to KK.

So, gotta keep all the cash i can. Heh!

Me and Koo kind of cleared things more in detail. He even said it wouldn't work out at all. And us, being so close is already risking alot of things. And either way, the end of it will be a bitch. Plus, i'm not fully ready to be committed.

I am sorry to say, i am not fully over you. I know it has been 6 months and 1 week and 1 day since we broke up. You still are that dork i love.