Aww..

Happy birthday Baby Girl - Ratna.
And Amin and I bought her that!

Disney.

I wouldn't mind living a fairytale life.

Chubby Cheeks.

This was during Valentine's Night. :)

and the sunrises..

Good Morning everyone. :)

Okay, obviously this so odd that I'd be posting pretty early in the morning, don't you think? There's always a reason to this.

Well i had a pretty long night. I just got back home.
Last night, went out with Koo, Hafiiz, G and Jason.
Had couple of drinks at Jason's and we ended up staying at Jason's until morning.

I had the feeling of going to the beach which we all ended up going at 6 in the morning.
Headed down to Tungku Beach. As we went off the car, Koo banged his foot to a rock and his toe ended up bleeding like hell. Yucky!

Well, it was a good night and morning too. But I'm so sorry to say, as i walked by the beach, alongside of Koo.. It just hit me how much it would be nice if it was YOU. I wasn't quite myself last night though. I was pretty much quiet. Just thinking how nice it would be if it was YOU there with me, sitting by the rocks watching the sunrising and just keeping quiet with each other's company.

Well as the time flies we went to have breakfast and sent Jason back home as well as Koo.

Nonetheless, it was quite a nice ending to a good night. :)

PS: I hope when YOU come back, we could go to the beach and just embrace each other's company in silence. That would be nice.

Just..

I just got back from an outing with Koo, Rats, Zai, Hadz and Tubs.
We had dinner at Chill and laughed our heads off.
Pretty funny and entertaining.

Well, nothing special. Just an outing with the friends. Keeping myself busy.
Still wish he was around. Sigh.

Missed you alot.

I have a cow, and its a gold cow. Haha! Cute!

Your Song..

This is dedicated to Azmil Maidin.

Your Song By Kate Walsh.



Haven’t you heard I’m stuck on a verse
I’m stuck on a boy who fills me joy
I knew I was wrong to jump straight on into
This picture so pretty but he is so pretty to me

And he doesn’t know just how far I would go
Just to kiss him, he doesn’t know how I pine

So I’ll make whirlpools and watch him sparkle
And we’ll make love make magic

And haven’t you heard I’ve fallen headfirst
And he loves me so we’re two in a row
just look in his eyes they’re blue as the skies are
Picture so pretty but he is so pretty to me

So I’ll make whirlpools and watch him sparkle
And we’ll make love make magic

But I couldn’t tell you
Just how long it takes you
Cause words don’t make
What I make with him

Haven’t you heard I’m stuck on a verse
I’m stuck on a boy who fills me with joy
I knew I was wrong to jump straight on into
This picture so pretty but he is so pretty to me

Tis easier said than done.

There's always a reason why.
A reason of why i don't want to take it seriously.
It is all because deep down and at the back of my mind it has always been you.
Though a friend keeps me company, i've been seen around with a friend a lot of times,
there is just a little something that is just isn't right.

For one i don't see a bright future. I can't picture it anywhere. At all.
It's just not the same like what i can picture with you.
I see bright and clear future ahead of me when i'm with you.
Everything seems just so right.

But i guess being so far apart, you can't really understand me anymore.
I hope, one day, you understand why i didn't take whatever i have now seriously.
I could never see it last at all.

Sigh. Understand why, it's all because it's you that this heart beats for.
Good Night.

Pictures From Last Night.

Red Red Wine..

Happy Valentine's day to everyone.

Well i didn't do much for it. But i had a good time.
Had dinner, had coffee, had a bonding session.

It was all fun fun fun.

Nothing romantic. Just a regular random night out.
I had the good company of Koo, Hafiiz, G, Acik and Jason.
Thanks to you all. You made my night. :)

Deeds.

Today was quite productive. Not in college it wasn't. I was half awake in college. Pretty damn sleepy. Sucks big time. Wasn't concentrating on anything in class. And i bought another bottle of the hair dye. This time i could see a little difference. Just wait until a few more washes and it'll hopefully show a big difference. Heh!

Well today, we - Me Hafiiz and G went jogging - at last! Woo! Burnt some calories. :) And headed home did the whole dying thing and then got ready and all that. Went had dinner with Aseli, Nings, Zoul and Kay at Berry Wan, right after, me and Kay headed to pick up Koo in town.

We headed to Fountain and waited for the two love birds to join us. Sat and chilled for a couple of hours and yes, we had our laughing moments. Love the fact that i am keeping myself busy not to think of you-know-who that much.

Well, i'm pretty knackered. I'm off to get some shut eye.
Peace!

..and it's the 13th again.. :(

The Unusual.

And i just got back from an outing again.

Today, i brought Hafiiz's car to college. Had lunch with Rats, Mayyah and Zai at Cheezbox. Hadz joined later on after all of was done with our meals. :)

Rats had her hair cut and i bought hair dye. I was bored and i didn't know what to else to do. And the outcome of the color, I SEE NO DIFFERENCE! Boo! Think i might get another bottle of it. Haha!

So, i decided to treat Hafiiz and G for coffee, i left home at about 945 or so, headed to FunBread with Edward Cullen. I sat there alone for almost 2hours reading. Something unsual for me to do. I waited for Hafiiz and G which i predicted not coming cause they were still sleeping. Ha! Koo joined me just before i was about to leave.

I managed to catch up with a week's loss of not reading Twilight. I am currently about to enter Chapter 10. Like i said, i am a slow reader.

Well i'd say, i had a good time to myself for those 2 hours just sitting at the corner table at Funbread, i should do that more often. Quite nice actually. And I quote "sound's sexy. ;)" haha! Really, you don't see anyone in Bru doing such thing. Just having coffee and reading a book, sitting alone. That is so rare to find in Bru. And i am serious about this. Well i suggest everyone should try it once in awhile. Really. It is pretty relaxing.

A book, coffee and cigarettes.

I shall update more soon. :)
Good Night.

I miss you..

Book Reading.

And like i said in previous posts, I started reading - again.
I just got my book off from Koo's place where I kind of forgot to bring back with me last week. And apparently, I am a slow reader by the way. I'm only up to half of chapter 5. Heh. But nonetheless, I am hooked.

I had a good night of dinner and coffee again tonight. :)
Glad I have company, a friend that I can always count on to put a smile on my face and keep me busy so that my mind won't wander off to Cardiff.

Though i still miss him and secretly still love him. Sorry to say, you are quite difficult for me to let go. Its almost half a year and i still think of you.

Coffee, Conversations & Cigarettes.

I just got back from outing with Koo, Hafiiz and G.
Had dinner with Koo at CA Mohammad. I bumped into my baby girl - Billah!
Oh how i missed her. It has been ages since i last met her. She has loss weight.
Ha!

So after a little chat with her, Koo and I decided to have coffee. Which Hafiiz and G ended up joining us at De Fountain. The night was great. Had coffee, conversations and cigarettes. I had a pretty good time really. Not complaining.

Though Fountain does bring back fond memories. :) Oh how i miss. Well i guess that's about it to update for now.

..but..

I just got back from having coffee with Hafiiz and G at the Arch. Well, i must say, atleast i did go out today. I've been stuck at home since i woke up this afternoon for lunch. And it killed me literally for staying home.

Thank god i got rescued. And it was an okay night i must say. :) Not complaining at all. And as i reached home, i logged in and put on The Scripts' I'm yours track. Quite nice to listen to. And pretty deep in the sense of melody.

I miss having someone who texts me up when i reach home or just even to ask how my night was and even to say good night to.

I have to stop all this emotional breakdowns really. It so unhealthy. But it should be okay just to miss someone doesnt it? Its not against the law right?

Sigh. I guess this is it for tonight. Shall update my life on this page soon.

..confusion.

Hey, well i'm gonna try to type out a long ass post for tonight.
It has been awhile since i stayed home on a Saturday night.

I've been doing a lot of thinking lately. I've put a whole lot of thought to this.
I've been smiling and happy knowing that I've got friends and all that. Having Koo being such a nice friend to accompany me every now and then is pretty occupying.

Though having friends and all this happening to me, and being single for about half a year is quite tough. Emotional break downs happen quite often and shit like that.

Though I'm happy and free now, I've to admit, I miss a whole lot of things. I don't know how I managed to stay single this long. I got to admit, I miss doing lovey dovey stuff, can't deny that. I miss having someone who gives me hugs, holding my hand, getting kisses and all those kind of things.

I can't see myself being in a relationship anytime soon. I can't say I'm not attracted to some guys, I am. But I just don't wanna go too far. Can't deny the fact that i'm hurt quite a lot of times. I get dumped most of the times. I just don't wanna give in anymore.

I don't want to let my emotions lead me to another broken hearted situation. It sucks. Sigh. What am i suppose to do now? I just don't get it. I'm just confuse and all that i guess?

I guess I just miss that one person that i really opened up to. How i miss having conversations with him. Sigh.

Friday Night Blues.

The end of love, the start of pain
The blood from my heart that now aches, stains
With the thought of your image, the thought of you care
Devoted to another, whilst my spirit is bare
Where am I to go, where is my hope now
Am I no longer important like our dedicated vows
You promised to always be there, and love me no matter what
But it seems you’ve moved on, loved another and forgot
The breakdown of our relationship, the break of my poor heart
You punctured it with your cruel ways; you stabbed it with a dart
You took away my faith, my dreams, I now have nothing left
My happiness has disappeared; a brutal act of theft
You promised to always be there, but now it all depends
On if you’ve found another love and when my heartache ends.
Lucy Arnold

I sit here alone,
Thinking about the times we shared,
The laughs, the cries, the pointless little lies.
You could never open up with me,
Where's the part of you I've longed to see?
Does you leaving, mean loosing everything?
Does my heart breaking mean anything?
I cry for hours but in front of you,
i have to hold back the tears
How long do you think this misery will last?
Days? Years?
If you truly loved me,
you would know this was right
and realize,
it was always meant to be
So when your around,
or willing to fight to get me back
my arms will be open,
cause this whole time it was faith we lacked
And maybe then
what people thought could be true
cause all along, i knew
It was you...
Anonymous

Dedicated to you

Azmil Maidin

This Is For Belle.

Hope you like it Belle! Yes, pretty stiff, and sorry if you couldn't hear me out. Haha! Nonetheless I LOVE YOU!

Girl..

Happy birthday belle! I love you oh-so-much!
Hope you'll be back soon. And we seriously need to catch up!
You are suppose to be online or something.

I miss you. Hope you have a blast!

Irresistable.

Every time log into my facebook, i just can't resist on checking on Azmil's profile. There's just things that makes me click on him. Oh, those eyes, that adorable face & that smile. How could i resist you?

Oh my god, i'm feeling under the weather again. Sigh. I miss Azmil.



My heart still skips a beat when i think of you.

More than enough.

So, yesterday. I had classes as usual. Headed to empire for the UK study fair thing and met Zai and Nad there. Sekali makan di ShiKai with Apes, Kay and Rats.

Came home at about 5ish. And unbelievably i stayed in.

How? Cause i slept in from 645 until 7 this morning. Hahahaha! I didnt plan to go out either though. But all is well. I had more than enough sleep now. :) Whee~

Through The Night..

And i just got back home. :)
Pretty exhausted. A good night sleep will just do.
So we didn't ended up going for the dinner thing.
Instead my mom annoyingly asked me to go for Tahlil at
Uncle Malai Hamid's place. The place where i don't even feel like i belong.

Seriously, even though we're all family and all that, it's just the way they're lifestyle,
makes me not belong there. I feel small when i'm there. Like i literally don't know them.
Sucks big time really.

Well after the whole function, i went out. Supposedly met up with Koo have coffee but he called a rain check. So, i ended up going out with Kay, Hafiiz, G, Aseli, Nings, Yus, Fazz, Zoul and Bang Rory. Well we celebrated Yus' birthday that's about it really.

I am guessing that's about it for the night.

Cheers!

And So..

I skipped afternoon class since we were told to go to Rizqun.
After i picked up and sent Faiz back to school i went for lunch with Koo.
Couldn't go far cause i was driving an illegal car. BooHoo! Sucks that i've to drive around an illegal car. Hmph!

I really hope that the whole roadtax gets settled soon enough. Pretty boring that i've to tag along with others just to go out and all. And the whole raining avoids me from driving the Camry that much. Hmph!

Well i had a pretty good afternoon filled with laughing my head off to stupid retarded things Koo does. He's a retard. Haha! A retarded good friend of mine. :)

And tonight, the whole family has a dinner invitation for Aseli's mom's birthday. So i shall soon be getting ready and all that. Update laters. :)

Breaking Free.

And i came home after class. To finish off the amendment to our presentation. I think i'm skipping afternoon class. Eugh! I just need space to breathe. Phew!

And that's me. That's how i look like these days for school. I don't really care about my tudong and my hair coming out anymore. Nyahaha!

Let's Chill.

I found this song from watching Snoop Doggs Fatherhood.
Its an old song by Guy but renowned by Charlie Wilson.
It's called Let's Chill. I find it nice. Not that bad really.

So today, woke up by lunch, had lunch at home and all that. Went to Bunut (at the grandparents) just for a little function since Bibi and Nini Girl and some of my cousins are going to Oman to visit Amit Sal. And funny how Pairing Ayob still calls Azmil as Amer. Haha! He was like "Ehh.. Mana si siapa ni nama nya.. Si Amer bah!" I was like, "Huh? Hahahahah" it made me smile cause its funny. He still can't get it right. Haha!

So then on we - Me and Hafiiz picked up Faiz from tuition and headed home. Had a little nap and all that. Went out just now at about 9ish with Kay. Koo joined us too at Coffee Zone as well as the love birds - Hafiiz and G.

It kinda made my night tonight. The whole jokes coming out of us. It made my night pretty much. The whole laughing. :)

And i have yet to start reading Twilight. :D

Cheers!

Thanks.

Before Heading Out.
At CheezBox.
On The Way To Jerudong.

Tonight, went out with Hafiiz, G and Koo. :) Had an occupied night. Pretty laxed out. Nothing big. Just had dinner and a drink at Aladdin. That's about it. And yet still feeling under the weather. Boo!