Happy Raya.

I would like to reach out to everyone that i am close to and lost contact with. And wish everyone of you a Happy Raya. I would sincerely like to seek forgiveness from everyone. Forgive me for everything i've said and done that have might cause pain physically and emotionally.

I hope my sincere apologies are accepted and i am forgiven.

I love you all and wish you all a happy raya once again.

PS: We'll be celebrating Raya on Thursday. :/

Smile.

Mum- My Pillar Of Strength.
FeeQs- My Best Friend.
Nings- My Sister.

another Airport day.

and another one left today. Aisyah left for UK. :( Wishing you have a safe flight and take good care of yourself. Sayang Aisyah!

Everyone is leaving. It sucks. :(

Mayyah, Nading and Ratna. Jangan nangis abis abisan ahh. Karang dehydrated. Me sayyyaaannggg kamu!

He Left On A Jet Plane.

I wish you a safe flight and take care of yourself there. Study your ass off cause you earned this scholarship. Don't mess up. Less partying. I love you.

I skipped work in the afternoon cause i had to run a little errand. Final touches to his farewell gift. I picked up Rats around 330 and headed home to take a shower and waited for Dinkers to let me know that she's on her way to the airport. Left home around 5ish and met up with Dinkers, Aisyah and Mayya.

Stood around and he saw us. He had this wide smile on his face and looked surprised that i was around, not sure if that smile was for me though. Greeted with a hug. :) And pecks on the cheek. Had a little convo with everyone and he had to spend more time with the family.

The girls and I walked around and said our good byes to Nisah. then ie was time to say farewell to Azmil. We hugged and I started to cry and couldn't let go. :'( He whispered "awkward awkward" cause i was being that way in front of the family i guess. And salam and told him to have a safe flight. Then the girls and i had to go before he boarded.

I miss him more than ever. Didn't take any pictures with him, wanted to but he looked busy. Fydah dice que hay nunca una hora exacta para decir bueno ¡adiós!

Mauri.

Yesterday, i went off from work early cause i was bored. I broke my fast early cause i had an itch to smoke a ciggy. :/ a girl's gotta do what a girl's gotta do.. I picked up Rats around 4 in Bandar and headed home.

Took a shower and everything. Went off to Villa Mauri around 6 and met up with Alil, Billah, Hadz, Zai and Tubbies. :) We stuffed our faces like pigs. Hehe. Left about at 8 and headed to town with Rats. Went about and then headed home around 9ish. :)

Uh oh! Someone is leaving. :/

Over the weekend.

Good morning my lovelies. :)

Well i know, i haven't been updating with words for quite sometime already. Hmm.. First things first, i am doing fine, just missing him every now and then. :/ Well last week was pretty alright. Not as expected. Weekend outing was great. Saturday, after work i picked up Bils at MIPR and we went to Gadong and window shopped, head to Jerudong where she had to change and shower cause we were going to have sungkai at mine.

At home, i showered, Bils watched GG and we had sungkai and right after done with eating, we went to the airport to send Yani and Wafi off. :) Met Dinkers, Hads and Zai there. Alil too. After the aiport, Zai tagged along with me and Bils, while Hads had to go to Rimba and wait for Tubbies. Dinkers had to drive her mom thus didn't join us for the outing.

So we three went to Vincci and DMK Serusop cause si Jengdah Buit kan cari heels, sekali we went to Gadong, which was packed and we were in queue for an hour just to find a freaking parking! Hmph! Sekali sekali kami jalan-jalan jual muka kami while waiting for Hads and Tubbies to join.

Sekali-sekali they came and we went to chill at Chill. :) I went home around 1045ish. And that's about it. The next day, went to Miri. And Monday i went out with Ratna to do her baju raya at Ka Yani's and had a drink at T.K. Went home around 10. And yesterday, after work, i went straight home and..

Waited for Kaka and went off to DeeJay in the afternoon to get my..
in red though.. :))) Sekali we went to Stadium and bought food. :D And headed home. After sungkai, i went out again with Ratna, accompanied her to do her hair at Alee's and headed home around 11ish. :) That's about it.

Last night had the most funniest and funnest 3-way convo with Min and Belle! Funny much. Slept about 345ish. :/

Splurging!

ily much am. :) that was random. it just popped out my head. seriously. nyehh..

i splurged! i splurged! i've got a new gadget! :))

Miri.

Yesterday went down to Miri. With parents and HafiiQah, Faiz and suppose to be Eyah. But no, something is wrong with the passport thing, and we had to turn back to Bandar and send her to Anah's and head back to miri again. Arrived around 12 ish or so and started off to Imperial then Parkson then Boulevard. Had "sungkai" at Secret Recipe! Oh Starbucks is going to open soon! :D

Bought a pair of another skinnies and bought my make-up stuff and also smuggled some gummie bears. :D and and i bought glasses. Result look at the above picture. I had nothing to buy. Heels nya bida bida ah. Hmph! well i've nothing much to update for now. Catch you all soon!

Farewell..

another farewell to these both loving love birds. :)

Good luck Nina and Zul. Work your asses off, you know you guys earned it and worked hard for it. :) Good Luck and hope you had a safe flight.

They left yesterday.

And now, it's Aisyah's turn. She'll be leaving tomorrow. :/
And next week, someone is leaving. :( sigh.

Black..White..

black and white pictures are just fun. :)

More Edits.

Thanks.

I couldn't help it but edit more of the pictures. :)

Okay today, something made my day.. seriously,but i'm just going to keep it to myself. :) Thanks you for talking to me even for a bit on FB. :) You made my day. See you.

My Tuesday..

me being bored at work yesterday. yes i was bored enough to to take pictures. After work i went to Bakerlyn and bought pastries. I ate in the car and ate at home. Haha! Hungry much.

When i arrived home, watched dvd and fell asleep, woke up and tripped over, i guess my legs were still sleeping, i tripped and hit my head on the closet door. Haha! Cali lah tapi my foot hurt. Hmph!

I was pretty blur at the dinner table, like really blur that i was awfully quiet. Nyeh. I went for a shower and then i went to get milk, ice kacang and dvd and kebab too. Then went back home and passed out watching Flakes.

That's about it yesterday.

Editorials.

Hey hey hey.. It's Fat Albert.. Okay i just had to do that.. Yes, lame much..

Anyhoos, did some editing. Yes, the only thing i'm good at. Editing pictures to B&W..

I've got to wait for Talongs to come back and learn some editing from him..

Well today, at work nothing much happened. All i did was sit from 815am until 315pm. Seriously, nothing to do at work. Barely stood up.

Mom picked up from work and headed to fetch Hafiiz's car, which i kinda chou yen otw back home. Cause i'm so cool like that. Hehe. Then watch a little of Kung fu Panda, which i slept halfway. Woke up by 5 and showered. Headed out to grab a meal with Koo at Thien Thien.

Then went to Koo's to catch dvd. Went home around 9ish.

I learned that, i am better off being a girl who is just a friend to guys, the kind of girl where guys can actually talk to and have a good laugh with. No commitments. Nyeh. I guess i'll be growing old alone ey? With 26 cats in a boot house. Haha!

Such a children bed time story. But yeah, i guess i will be one of those girls that still can't figure out what to do with life or love by the age of 30ish? Man! That's gonna suck..

PS: I'm not moving, cause i'm gonna be at the corner where i first saw you. :)

Farewell..

Aslin left yesterday, never did get a chance to see him and spend his last days in Brunei. Though i got kind of close to him through you-know-who, he's still a friend. :)

He's a friend to many. And he's a great friend though I just got close. Nyehh..


Well, all i've got to say to this Scottish White Malay Boy is.. Good luck in UK.
Di sana kau layan Linnn~ :P Awhh.. No more "Layan Linnn~" Boo!

Well yesterday had family function in Jerudong. Hmm.. after function went to De Fountain, met up with them Hafiiz and FeeQs. :)Headed home about 1030ish i guess. :) That's about it.

More of..

Yeah, pretty much camwhoring last night. I stopped with the Sony and started off with the webcam after.. and results are as above.. Hehe.. Grew up to be a camwhore!

Camwhoring.

Hello reader(s).. :)

So today, is not as i expected. :) I went to work, i went to college for abit and headed home and started to clean up my room and rearranged it a little. i now have a little working/studying space, a mini living room and the room is freaking spacious now. I'm loving it!

And afterwards i had my shower and stuff, headed to Qlap did some girly thing and fetch Koo up and headed to TK, where we had our early sungkai, well i wasn't fasting anyways. Ha! Then we went for rounds and ended up fetching his skating stuff and went to Lambak. And afterwards went to his place again with Acik this time and waited for Azman to go down to Kaybee.

I didn't go Kaybee though. I went to Gadong to meet up with Wadud to catch the Arsenal match, which we won. 4 nil. :) And after i chilled a little with the Boys - Nabil, Harris and Azmi at the parking lot and headed home and camwhored. A few of the shots are as above.

Nyehh that's about it really.

Should've, Would've, Could've.

if you know what i mean.. :/

Coffee & Cigarettes.

Above is yesterday's outing. :) where i drove down to Deli to meet up with them Hafiiz and FeeQs. :)

So today, pretty nice. Okay that's such an ugly photo really. So after work today i went home and showered. Got ready and stuff. :) Planned to go and "sungkai" at McDons with Koo since he was in town, but as i thought and expected, we had to cancel McDons cause B and Nikky reserved tables for sungkai at Seasons, to celebrate B's birthday. Thanks Nikky! At dinner there was me, Koo, Nikky, B, Cefu and Suley.

We all had a pretty good laugh at dinner. Was fun. Oh after dinner we went to B's shop for a bit then went to Chong Hock and grab dvd. Headed to Koo's and laxed out while waiting for B and the rest to fetch Koo to skate. I headed home about 9 and finished off the Sleeping Dictionary.

I guess i'm doing alright so far, i give all the credits to f r i e n d s. Cause they'll always be there for you. Ready to listen to what you have to say and all. Looking forward to more coffee and cigarettes night out. :) Just to keep myself busy much.

Saturday, arsenal's match.

Again??

the last angel beach last month.

Happy Birthday B!

Scratch that part where we were suppose to sungkai at Seasons. I was right, B's birthday wasn't yesterday.. Its today lah! Haha!

Happy Birthday B!

"May Allah shower you with His blessings, joy and prosperity.
And Keep on changing Brunei's fashion trend man!"

So yesterday, i ended up having sungkai with Hafiiz and FeeQs at Deli Nutreesh, it was alright, made me miss Asmelly because of yesteryear's sungkai out with him and them Hafiiz and FeeQs. :(

Well i'm guessing i have nothing much to update about yesterday. Will update again later. :)

Peace!

Seasons..

I am pretty much bored right now. Work is done. I've got nothing to do and I am gonna go all hungry, like starve myself like I'm going to die. Because apparently yesterday Koo asked me to go Seasons for B's birthday sungkai dinner. So hells yeah, I'm up for it. :) Crowds good, foods going to be good i hope, so why not right?

And lets point it out again, NOTHING, i repeat, there's NOTHING going on between me and Koo. He's just a friend that i could talk to.

Well all day sitting at the office really sucks. Very bored much. :/

And i miss Asmelly the Kinky Baboon much. :/


Boring ehh! I'll just update how the rest goes later on.


Peace!

Destiny..

I got this phrase from two movies I just watched.

"Destiny is a bridge you build to the one you love."

"This is life.. Not heaven.. You don't have to be perfect."

So I went out after sungkai with Min. We went to Gadong. Had a drink and had a little chit chat. I just can't be arsed for the time being. I know i did my part, I'm not saying I'm giving up, I am not giving up actually. I'm just going to give it space and let it be - for now.

The movie i watched taught me a lesson. Seriously. I mean My Sassy Girl movie did taught me a lesson. Because i believe and have hope and faith that destiny and fate will bring him around one day, some day. Not now, but in the future, in another life, fate/destiny will find its way.

Downloading random songs on limewire is so cool. I found a band and i'm falling in love with their songs. It's the Dear Juliet band. :) They've got mellow acoustics. I love.

Well i guess, i'll update more later on today at work.

Azmil Maidin, you'll always be missed and always be loved by me. I miss you, my always.

Birthdayness..

this was taken few weeks ago. and it looks like as if i had my retainer on. nyeh.
i'm bored. i'm pretty much bored.

I went out last night to grab a drink at CB, and Dut called. He was just being random, like really random that he said he was rolling some small popias. And he cracked me up saying that he rolled them like J's. Pacah wah anak ah.

I'm bored. Very bored. I'm going to die of boredom! :/

Oh oh! Happy birthday to..

Waiz Maidin & Harris Hamdan

well i guess that's about it for now? Catch you guys later.

Walk Away..

"They say if you love somebody than you have got to set them free, 
but I would rather be locked to you than live in this pain and misery. 
They say time will make all this go away, 
but it's time that has taken my tomorrows and turned them into yesterdays. 
And once again that rising sun is droppin' on down 
And once again, you my friend, are nowhere to be found."

Part of Ben Harper's Walk Away Song.

Download it. Its a good song to listen to.

oh i miss you.

Sunken Ship..

because of the situation is very boring, i ended up changing the layout and stuff. And i am done with doing my work. Just waiting on the time to fly and strike 315! :D Please.. I want to go home and i want my bed.. :)

Nothing much i've got to say.. Just that..
i miss him. Nyeh..

Live a little..

Yes, i miss him, these rasta colours reminds me of him. Nyehh.. Its all good really. As long as i don't text him then its all good. Haven't texted him for the past few days. Though i've got urges to.

Well the weekend was alright. Didn't expect to have a chilled out weekend. Last night after sungkai out and stayed home for a couple of hours, headed out around 10, brought Koo along to get DVDs from Communist and also met up with Hafiiz and FeeQs at De Fountain.

We were bored that's why. And i had nothing to do. So decided to go out.

Oh.. Allowance.. Come out come out wherever you are.. I need to get stuff done..
Such as :

1. Get a new line.
2. Study table.
3. Paint.
4. Heels.
5. Clothes.
6. KK with family?

Nyehh.. yeah its just a list.. but i really need to stick to this list.. Like seriously i need to.

Alrighty then people, get back to ya laters.
Peace!

.nidiamlimza,uoyssimi

Out out out..

Alhamdulillah. I am pretty much stuffed! Hehe!

We had sungkai out at Villa Mauri. Not bad really. If you close your eyes you'll think and feel like your in an Italian restaurant in Italy or something. Seriously.

Well, if HE was still around, HE'd be stuffing himself with me and the rest of the family. Serious shit yeos. I ate alot. Like alot alot. :D

Anyhoos, night is pretty dull right now. Oh i woke up at 2! Look at my hair, it has gone short because of the trim.. :/ Boo! Errr.. whatelse whatelse..

Oh i'm planning on getting my room a make over. Seriously i need to clean up my room and shit. Nyehh.. Well i guess that's about it.. I'm still waiting on what the night has for me.

and yeah, did i tell? I got myself a shirt from Abg Syed. :) He bought me Ed Hardy shirt from Bangkok. :) Loving it! Hehe!

imissyou,nidiamlimza.

Life..

So, tonight is exactly 2 days/nights since i last texted him. I've kept myself busy.

Work has been alright i guess. I went to college just now after work. To send my attendance.

As expected, Miss J asked what happened. And i had to tell her what happened. And i met my juniors for abit, gave a little info on how to do their assignments. :)

Then i headed to Communist to get dvds, headed home and watched dvd and passed out until sungkai. Hahahaha!

After that had my shower and headed out to fetch Koo and went to Gadong grab something to eat and drink. Then headed his place chilling watching It's All Gone Pete Tong movie.

Well i had a little drink at Koo's. Just a glass and i'm all good. Just to get the temptation out of the way. :)

Well i enjoyed tonight's outing. I didn't talk much about him, cause i don't want people running away and avoiding me because i bore them and make them tired to even listen to what i have to say. So yeah. I decided to keep it to myself and just not let it bother me when i'm out with friends. ;)

imissyou..

Well, i better get going. I've got time to kill and sahur to wait. Nyehh..

Thumbs Up!

Hey hey hey!

So yeah, last night after sungkai we all had our smokes. And then when i was about to shower Aseli offered me to go out with them - Aseli, Nings, Hafiiz and FeeQs. Couldn't resist cause i had no plans. Koo and John went down to boarders so yeah. So i tagged along with the siblings lah.

We went to the Mall, FeeQs got rid of her monkeys, Nings bought heels, and i've got my eyes on that Pink Prada bag! I'm so gonna get it. I want it! Then off we went to Qlap. Hafiiz bought sunnies and then we headed home about 1030ish. At home, watched series and i had an unexpected call from Koo. He was drunk dialing. Complaining why i'm not with them having a drink or two. How could i join them? It was pass midnight already. Tsk tsk tsk.

Well that's about it really. Err.. I haven't texted him today. No-sir-ree.
I'm going to keep on holding back eventhough i've got these urges to text him telling i miss him and all. :/

Peace ya'll!

What about...

I trimmed my hair today. :)

Well i heard from someone about you know who that he won't be away too long.

Well if it's true then Alhamdulillah.

I haven't texted him the whole day today. That's a good thing.

Them girls say its good i haven't texted him and they say i better stop it too.

Well i'm giving it a chance. Not texting and shit. Cause i've done my part already. And i should stop doing my part. And give it a rest and its time for him to do his part.

Oh! And i'm giving a thought to change my number too.

Soon, i'll change my number. ;) Don't worry i'll let you guys know the new number yeah? :)

Well today was dull at work. Nothing much happened. After work i went to si Moore for my trim and then headed home and fetched FeeQs. Went to the Stadium and back home for sungkai.

I don't know what's up tonight. Maybe, if nothing comes up, might stay at home. Guess there's nothing much to update.

i miss..

...*sigh*

a picture says a million words.